I've been trying to stop my tears from the whole car ride back to my place. But no, it was too much to hold on. A few tears were escaping my eyes, I couldn't stop myself from trembling.
As I arrived back to my place, I ran to my room, and just started releasing all the feelings that were piled up inside of me. The first feeling on top of that pile was Betrayal.
Louis was right. Louis was right all along. Christopher wasn't the right guy for me. He never loved me. He's cheating on another girl. And he just tries to hurt me. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing down my cheek. Betrayal, Guilt, sadness, despair. Everything! I can't hold it much longer. I didn't care how much the bed's getting soaked.
All I cared about in this situation is to let it all go. I just want to release everything. But most importantly... I wanted someone to hold me, someone to comfort me while I'm suffering from this madness.
Then suddenly, just out of the blue, I felt a warm touch behind me. His presence made me feel safe, protected. It was Louis. I looked up at him, the tears still streaming down my face. Louis eyeing me sympathetically. He laid my head on his chest, keeping me close to him. "L-Louis..."
"Shh. Just let it all out." He stopped me from talking any further. He patted my back, prompting me to let it all out. I felt his soft lips pressing against my forhead, trying his best to comfort me in anyway possible.
Louis helped me wipe away a few of my tears with his thumb, letting me know he's here for me. His eyes seemed watery.
I wiped away a few of Ashley's tears away, letting her know I was here for her. I felt like I wanted to cry too, knowing how much pain she's suffering from.
I knew from the start that something bad would happen. Something like this would happen. She'd eventually get hurt at the end. But she wouldn't listen... I just wished that I could have done something. It's my fault she's like this. It's my fault she had to suffer from all this pain. Her past, her love life. Everything.
It's all my fault. I wasn't there for her.
"Louis...." Ashley choked out, still a few tears falling from her eyes. I looked down at her, placing strands of hair behind her ear. "I'm sorry..." She whispered, her hands covering her face so that I couldn't see the tears falling from her face.
I just stroked her hair and said "You shouldn't be sorry for anything love. I am.".
"No." She denied, looking up at me with teary eyes. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being stupid. I'm sorry for being stubborn. I'm sorry for being so arrogant. I'm sorry for not believing you. And I'm sorry for bringing you into this mess!" She sniffed, her tears still streaming down her face.
I felt sorry for her. I know she's just upset... I know she's disappointed. I know how she feels. The pain she received is too massive to be treated. I looked down at her, I lifted her chin up and looked into her eyes.
"Love, you don't have to be sorry for anything. It's not your fault I'm here, I'm the one who got myself in it. You don't have to be sorry, it's alright to be... Stupid at times. It's okay to be stubborn or arrogant. All I know is you're upset and you can't take enough of this pain, am I correct?" She hesitated before nodding. "Well, it's okay. I'm here for you, and that's all that matters. It only means Christopher isn't meant to be for you. He isn't meant to be in your life. You deserve someone better." I told her, and tears still fell down from her eyes, she finally managed a smile. A genuine smile.
"Thanks Lou... I'm lucky to have a person like you in my life." She hugged me tighter, still sniffing her nose. I understood that it was hard for her to talk much longer. "Ashley, you have to go to bed." I told her, wanting to ease the pain she's experiencing right now.
Ashley just violently shook her head. "No, I don't want to. I want you to stay here." She pleaded, pulling the sleeve of my shirt as she held me tighter. I felt my chest was really wet because of Ashley's tears.
I let out a sigh and nodded. "Okay, I'll stay here. Just for you love." I told her with a smile, her tears glistened in the moonlight coming from the window. I saw her eyes were bloodshot red. I felt really bad for her. If I only I protected her. I let out another sigh. "Fuck." I cursed to myself, wishing that I was there for her when I needed to.
"It's okay..." Ashley muttered. "You've been of enough help already."
I looked at her, confused. "You heard me?" I asked her and she shook her head. "You'd mostly blame yourself whenever I got hurt, like what happened in my 16th Birthday. You'd always swore to yourself, wishing that you'd be there for me when I needed you most and you also wished that these situations would never happen." She explained and I looked down, still feeling guilty.
He looked down to the ground, not wanting to make eye contact with me. I wiped away my tears, trying not to make him feel bad. I looked up at Louis, who seemed guilty about it. My heart was beating rapidly.
Louis' words kept echoing in my head. You deserve someone better. Were mostly the words that were stuck in my mind. And he was right. I deserve someone better. Cause I love Louis. Only Louis. No one else, but him. He was the one. The one that Lavender told me about. I belong to Louis. I grinned at the thought. "Thank You, Louis. For being here." I whispered to him, resting my forehead against his. "Your welcome." He whispered back, giving me a smile.
"I want to tell you something Lou..." I trailed away, but before that I inched myself towards him. I looked into his eyes, my tears glistening in the moonlight.
"I Love You Louis Tomlinson. With my whole heart. There was never another person, only you. You're the one I love, and always will." I told him and a smile spread across Louis' face and he placed both of his hands on both of my cheek, cradling it. "Ashley Brown, I Love you too. No matter what. Even if there any obstacles that separate us, no matter how far you and I will be from each other, you will always be the one person I love. I love you with my whole heart." He told me and I had a really huge smile across my face.
Then, with that, we shared each other a passionate kiss filled with sparks and everything. It felt like we owned the moment, nothing was in our way. It seemed like we really belonged to each other, in which we indeed did. I felt like it was only the two of us in this world, nothing else mattered. It was only Him that matters. I tangled my fingers in his soft hair, savoring the moment. Then, when we finally let go, the smile never disappeared from my face.
"Ashley..." Louis called out, his eyes closed. "Yeah?" I answered back. "I promise that I'll protect you no matter what and I'll be there for you in any situation. I promise to you that you'll never be alone in accomplishing your challenges. I'll be there for you no matter what and I'll be there to help you. And I'll always love you with my whole heart." He vowed, his gorgeous eyes staring into mine.
"I promise to you that you'll be the only man I'll ever think about for the rest of my lifetime and I'll be there for you too Boo Bear." I giggled out and he let a chuckle. "I Love You." He said again.
"I Love You too." I told him again and the both of us shared a kiss, a memorable kiss.
Louis is the only man for me. No one else, only him. And that's what matters.