I froze... Was that Niall crying or just my imagination?
"Zayn!" Liam called
After hearing a few more whimpers I picked up my phone and moved quickly to the bus doors
"See ya later Niall" I farewelled him
I shut the door behind me and caught up with them. Harry looked a little annoyed with me, which I could understand.
For starters I'd pushed Niall out my bed. It's not that I wanted to... It's that I didn't want to look gay. My parent hate the fact that I am gay and I never told the guys because I know they'll judge me
The worst part is that I like Niall. I think he likes me too but I'm scared that I'm wrong and that he's just being playful. Louis says he does the same to him on a few occasions so it just seems like it's Niall being friendly.
I'm pretty sure Louis has figured out that I like Niall because he looked in shock when I pushed Niall out my bed.
But second off I'd made Niall cry. I'd done it a lot, I'm not gonna lie. Ever since we started touring Niall had been in tears usually once or twice a week because of me.
I never mean to do it. He's just sensitive. I know I shouldn't like him and pushing him away is the only way I can stop myself from doing anything dumb like asking him out and ending up rejected and in the news.
But Niall doesn't want to go away, no matter how harsh I force myself to be. It's what confuses me. I have this gigantic crush on him that I've had since I saw him crying after we got eliminated on X Factor.
But I'm not admitting that to anyone in this band. I haven't admitted it to anyone, let alone hinted toward it. My mum asked if I liked anyone in the band and I completely lied to her, saying that every one of them were basically idiotic brothers of mine.
Usually when Niall cries it happens in public... That's why I hate pushing him away also. Because if someone were to ever discover I'd made him cry I'd be in deep shit. The boys would all hate me, the fans would rage and I'd just be a depressed guy that feels like he needs the guy he's been ratchet to, so he can be happy again.
I know Niall cries loads... But I still feel horrible. I mean, what if Niall likes me back? How heart broken would this make him? I invite him to sleep beside me and then I push him out my bed.
I know if he'd done that to me I wouldn't say a word to anyone for weeks.
"Wait, I like this!" I said quickly, suddenly snapping from my thoughts
"Then... Get it" Liam gave me a blank look
I picked up the black batman shirt and wen to pay for it... And then something else caught my eye.
It was a singlet with the American flag on it... Niall's into that sort of stuff. I checked for the right size and put that up too, paying for the two shirts
"Have a nice day" the girl behind the counter smiled
Then I went back to the boys and we left, going to the food court to get lunch
"Maybe we should go to Nandos" I mumbled
thatLouis was the first to give me a suspicious look
"Why?" He asked
"Correction" Harry intruded "you know what he likes"
"Yes" he cut me off a second time "you even know the drink"
"It's not hard to remember!" I shot at him
"Excuse me but we've been to Nandos twice" Louis sided with Harry "you can even remember what you like which is a drink and a wrap... But you remember Niall's entire order"
"I do remember my order" I disagreed
"What is it?"
"A coke and a chicken wrap"
"What's the heat?"
"Wrong, it's lemon and pepper" Liam answered
"Well so what?" I asked "this isn't about my order, this is about Niall being at home, with jet lag, crying and probably hungry"
Harry then shot me a look... One that said he knew Niall was crying but wanted to know how I knew
"Crying?" Liam asked
"Yeah, wulpullhen I went back to get my phone he was crying" I nodded "I know why and I'm going to talk to him but... I just think we should get him lunch"
"Alright then, we'll go to Nandos"
"Good" Harry nodded "I don't even want McDonalds"
Then we all got into the car and went to i,ate ouro food and then paid. I went to the counter and got Niall's order as takeaway.
Then we went back to the bus. Louis, Liam and Harry went out again and that me at the bus after I insisted to talk alone with Niall.
poI pulled back his curtain and he was laying on top the covers, curled up like he always was
"Ni" I called "I got you something"
"I don't want it"
"It's Nandos" I tried
"I don't want it"
"Niall come on, I got your favourite"
"You or one of the other boys?" He asked angrily
"Me" I said "I ordered and I paid, none of the others were with me"
"I swear" I insisted "I'm the only one that knows your entire order"
"What drink did you get me?"
"Coke with ice"
"I don't have it with ice"
"Yes, you do" I disagreed
"Is there corn?" He then turned round
"Course" I nodded "your wrap, your peri-peri chicken... Everything is in here"
"Fine" he took it from my hands
"No, eat at the table" I took it back
"Yes Daddy" he rolled his eyes and pushed past me
I let Niall eat and I unpacked my bag of tkw shorts.... Should I just give the shirt to Niall? Or do I hide it in his bed?
I know that if he finds something he likes in his bed he asks who it belongs to. And if nobody answers he'll claim it but... Maybe I should just give it to him
Niall came walking in my direction and I smiled, till he pushed me aside... Had I upset him that much?
"I'm sorry... Okay?"
Niall stopped walking and he turned to face me
"I said I'm sorry" I repeated myself "I know I shouldn't have pushed you out my bunk because I asked you to get in-"
"No you didn't"
"No, I got in" Niall shook his head "you just told me to lie on top of you"
"Of course not"
"Oh... Well, I got you this" I held out the shirt with two hands
"What is it?"
"It's a singlet" I answered "we were at the mall and I thought you might like it- oof!"
Niall threw his arms round me, hugging me tight
"Thank you" he mumbled
"I'm for real, sorry" I savoured the hug "I know I've made you cry loads lately but trust me... I don't enjoy it"
I felt Niall yawn, it made me smile. He wasn't one to usually have jetlag, it would always be me... But now it was the both of us.
"You want to go back to sleep?" I asked
"I'll lie down with you" I offered "in your bunk"
This is what I mean. He rejects the sleeping offer but when I offer to be in the bed he agrees without hesitation. He didn't want the Nandos and only when I said I ordered and paid by myself did he want it. I said I got him a shirt that reminded me of him and he gives me a hug... This is why I'm not sure if he likes me or not.
I helped him to his bed and he moved all the way against the back, giving me more space than I need
"No Niall" I whispered "come closer"
I smiled at his stubbornness, pushing his front against the wall so he whimpered
"I want to cuddle" I taunted
"I know you don't" Niall mumbled
"You're so stubborn" I smiled, leaving a small kiss on his shoulder
"Stop it" Niall grumbled
"Why Niall?" I asked, letting my hands slip up the front of his shirt
"I don't like this"
"Now that's a lie" I smirked, rolling him so I could pin him under my body
"Please" he whimpered "just stop terrorising me"
"I'm not terrorising you" I insisted "I just want to cuddle"
Niall looked up at me with big innocent eyes... They just made me want the virginity he still secretly had.
"Because Niall" I smiled, rolling him ontop of me "I love your cuddles"
"You pushed me out your bed"
"I didn't do it on purpose"
"Yes you did"
"No... I didn't" I whispered into his ear
Niall shivered above me, shutting his eyes and making me smile
"Just lie with me" I nagged "you can curl up with me okay? You can pick either side and this time I won't push you out"
"Alright" he mumbled
I smiled and Niall moved back to the side of the wall. I went to cuddle up to him but he pushed me out his bed with his feet.
I hit the floor with a loud thud but I knew he was playing with me now. I pounced back into his bed playfully smacking him for pushing me
"Stop it!" He squealed
"How dare you push me out of your bed!" I exclaimed "you could have ruined my hair!"
And then our maturity decreased dramatically.
Niall messed up my hair and I pretended to scream in horror. He laughed his beautiful laugh underneath me, and I knew exactly how to get him back.
I dug my fingers into his sides, making him cry out before he cracked up. I kept going and Niall was squirming underneath me. It gave me an idea to scare him
"Stop!" He laughed "Zayn, Zayn stop!"
"I know how to make you scream" I hissed into his ear, resting my bottom lip against his earlobe "and writhe under me ... I know exactly where you want to be touched"
Niall eyes widened and I started to travel my hands up his shirt. He gulped, shutting his eyes as they just went further.
I lifted off his shirt and his eyes opened, a darkened blue telling me this was turning him on. I smirked then went under his arms, making him squeak before he cracked up again
I tickled him harder and soon he was gasping for air. He was going red in the face and I just kept tickling him. Then all of a sudden I was under him, being attacked by his fingers.
I liked this position... I liked it a lot. Niall on my hips shirtless may or may not be one of the sexiest things he's ever done.
This time if was me laughing under him as he tickled my hips and then under my jaw where I hated people touching me for the reason that one touch made me squeal
"Woah" Niall pulled back quick
"Don't touch that" I went bright red
Niall poked and it automatically made me squeal. I can't explain why it's just one of my irks I guess.
Niall laughed adorably and poked it again before he tickled me again.
"Niall!" I laughed "get off! You're killing me!"
Then he stopped, a mischievous smile on his lips
"What?" I asked
"I love you under me" he purred
I'm not going to lie. I instantly went hard, I think I might have also wet myself
"R-really?" I stuttered
"It's so much better" Niall smirked "because I like to top"
Okay I'd definitely wet myself
I gulped... Please tell me he's joking.
His fingers hooked the side of my jeans and my heart started to race. I thought it would leap out of my chest at this rate. Niall kept sliding my pants down till the reached just above my junk
"No" I pulled them back up
"You took off my shirt" Niall glared "so I'm taking off your pants"
"You don't want to do that"
"And why not?"
"I uh... W-wet" I mumbled
Niall cracked up laughing and I went a deep red
"Why are you wet?" He cackled
"Because of you!" I exclaimed "and your purring!"
Niall only laughed harder an I groaned annoyed, laying my head on his pillow with my eyes tightly shut and my hands over my face... This is the only thing I dislike about Niall... He's annoying as fuck.
"Oh well, it's not like it's piss" Niall then went back to pulling down my pants
"Stop it!" I hissed, grabbing my pants
"No" Niall snapped
"Yes" I pulled them up a little more
"No" Niall then pulled them down double what I'd pulled up
"Yes" I insisted
"Yes" Niall agreed
"No" I growled "wait... Fuck"
"Ha, I win" and then Niall yanked them completely off
I pushed him off my body and curled up, going beet red as I held my junk and pulled in my knees
"Oh my god you're so wet" Niall laughed
"Shut up you bimbo" I snapped
"Wait a second... Why are you wet?" Niall then looked at me wanting an explanation
"Because you were purring!" I shouted
"Yeah but... I'm a boy" Niall frowned "you don't just wet yourself because someone purrs"
"How do you know?" I asked
"I'm the horniest kid alive" he said proudly "I know everything"
"Then why am I wet?" I asked to test him
"You... Like me" he taunted
"What? No I don't" I lied
"Yeah you do" Niall teased "Zaynie's got a cru-ush, Zaynie's got a cru-ush"
"Shut up Niall, I do not!" I protested
"You like me on top of you... Don't you?" Niall waggled his tongue
"Ugh. Enough" I pleaded
"Zayn, you're soaked" Niall smirked "you do like me"
"Why the fuck would I have a crush on someone like you?!" I shouted
That's when Niall's smile dissaapeared
"I'm not gay!" I lied "I am not fucking gay for you okay? Get real"
"Get out my bed"
"Me?" I asked annoyed "what did I do?"
"Get out you cunt!" He shrieked
"I was only playing" Niall whimpered "thanks a lot for the confidence boost, Zayn... Really"
"Niall I'm sorry-"
"No you're not"
"I just wanted to cuddle" I sighed
"Fine then, let's cuddle" Niall still looked annoyed
I could tell I'd hurt his feelings but at least he wasn't crying this time... Not yet anyway
"Come here Nialler" I pulled him into a hug
Niall whimpered the moment I brought him into his arms and I knew I'd upset him.
"You're an asshole" Niall mumbled
"I know" I agreed, laying us both down
"You really hurt my feelings" Niall whispered
"I'm sorry" I said quietly
"Your lap is wet and warm" Niall cringed
"I know, it's gross" I said "but if somebody had let me keep my pants-"
"You can take of your boxers" Niall murmured
"I don't mind" Niall smiled "and we're both straight... So it wouldn't be weird"
"I guess" I mumbled
He was straight. That is the only time he's told me that and to be honest... It's breaking my heart
"Take me off then"
"What if the lads come back?"
"Just get under the covers" Niall insisted "they can't make you get up naked"
"Won't it be weird?" I asked "me in a shirt but no pants?"
"If you're that worried you should take the shirt off too"
"That'll be suspicious"
"God" Niall at up and started to pull off his shorts "you're such a drama queen"
"What are you doing?" I asked
"Showing you it doesn't matter" Niall tossed them to the end of his bed
"By taking off your clothes?" I asked curiously
As he started pulling down his boxers I pulled my shirt over my head. If I saw Niall naked I'd never forgive myself for accepting that sort of eye candy.
I then slipped off my boxers and threw them into the laundry basket, getting them perfectly in
Then I lay about ten centimetres from Niall and he rolled his eyes, shifting closer and giving me a hug.
I knew I had a boner and Niall did too but it didn't seem to bother him at all... So it shouldn't have to bother me either.
Niall lay me down and pulled me to the side, curling up into my naked body.
"You're nice and warm" he mumbled, burying his face into my chest
"Be careful" I whispered
"Yeah" he mumbled "you too"
After a little while I felt Niall's lips open against my skin... What?
I raised my head but when I did I felt a small breath on me... He'd fallen asleep.
I lay my head back down and just stared at him. He was sleeping now... I could just take a quick look and he'd never know.
But that's perverting and if I got caught he'd he'd probably get mad. But I want to risk it... Unless he decides that he loves me and wants me to have his virginity... Then I should probably wait
"I need therapy" I decided aloud
I pulled Niall the closest I could and kissed his head, shutting my eyes and letting myself fall asleep