he sat there with that smirk that he has been doing ever since i first met him. "uh, ok. so um, I'm just gonna go to my house and," i don't really know what i could do there. my dad died there and going there is just gonna make me cry for hours, but i guess its better than where i am now because, if you ask me its feels really weird. i can't even explain it. "a-and uh- go back to sleep, i guess." i stuttered, turning around and starting to walk back to the house. "jade," "what do you want now?" i asked turning around, getting frustrated because he won't stop talking so i can just go home. "c'mere." he said calmly, still sitting against the tree. "why?" "because, i know what your gonna do when you go back home."he said looking up at me. "what?" i was confused, why did he even care? "when my mom died, i cried for weeks. i thought it would never stop. and I'm a guy. your a girl, so I'm sure it will be harder on you. so, c'mere." he motioned for me to come sit by him. just thinking about my dad brought tears in my eyes. and i knew that that was exactly what was gonna happen.
i stood there for a moment, thinking about my dad, how he would always make me come and sit with him whenever i was sad, until i gave up and went to sit by him. when i got there, i sat against the tree next to him and he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his chest. "i'm sorry. i should've stayed at the hospital with you, and drove you home. I'm sorry i didn't, but i can't stand having a girlfriend and knowing that i can't have you too. and i'm sure this isn't the right time to ask, with your dad and after i broke your wrist, but i will eventually. i'll wait until this all calms down. you don't have to say yes, and i know you probably won't. I'm mean, what have i done for you that was good? nothing, i broke your wrist, yelled at you after you found out about your dad, left you at the hospital with no way of getting home and let alone even know where your house was, then kidnaped you." he said quietly. what was he saying? did he really just tell me he was gonna ask me out later? and is he apologizing?
i looked up at him and saw that he was already looking down at me." your not making this any better." i said. he half smiled and looked up at the river. "yeah, i guess so. anyways, how's your wrist? is it broken? do you have to get a cast?" he asked, changing the subject. "i don't know yet, they said that it was broken, and i have to go back in a week or so to see if i need a cast." i said, looking at the brace on my hand. he nodded and looked down at me again. "I'm really sorry jade. i didn't mean what i said back before i left you at the hospital. i don't want to be strangers, i don't want to stay away from you. I'm sorry i even said that. I'm sorry i left you there. i just had to get back to holly and break up with her. do you know how hard it is to have a girlfriend, and be around you? harder than anything, and everything. even if i can't call you mine, i'll be there for you. i know what your going through right now, and i had no one to help me through it. and it took me months to get over it. But i'll be there and help you through it all." he said, pulling me closer and tighter. "what makes you think i'd say no? i could change my mind." i said smiling. "one can only hope." he whispered.
we sat there for awhile, until i wanted to go back home. "niall, I'm cold can i go back to the house?" i asked. "Why…" he whined. I started to get up until niall pulled me back down. "Niall…its cold." i whined. "I'm really, truly sorry princess. i want you to know that. you can trust me. i'll make it up to you." he said, getting up and pulling me with him. "I'm sure you will." i whispered. i started to walk back to the house until i was pulled slightly back and got picked up. i screamed and giggled, causing him to smile. " i will. i promise." he argued. i stopped screaming and he walked back to the house with me in his arms.
when we got to the door he put me down and i noticed it was locked and i didn't have my keys. " it's locked, we have to find another way in." i said looking around and remembering my bedroom balcony and to my luck, there was a huge tree by it. i smiled and went to the side of the house. i looked back and saw niall standing there watching me. "come on. standing there isn't gonna do anything, come help me." i said, he smiled and walked over to me. "if i can get up this tree, i could get in my room through the balcony." i said, trying to find spots on the tree where i can grip to climb. "you don't lock it?" he asked, walking closer to me. "No. now help me get on that branch. when I'm up there i can get up to the railing and pull myself up." he nodded and got as close as he could. "can you trust me?" he asked. i looked at him, his face inches away. i hesitated to answer him. can i trust him? do i? "how else am i gonna get up there?" i smiled and turned towards the tree, getting ready to climb. "so, uh- how can i help you get up?" he asked. "just give me a lift and i should be able to get up from there." he nodded and grabbed my thighs, starting to pick me up. "sorry," he quietly said. i would of did something about it. you know, with a boy i met only a few days ago touching me like that, but i didn't. and i don't know, or have the answer to why i didn't.
he pushed me up and i got ahold of the branch i was aiming for. after a got up on it i sat there and looked down at niall. "what are you waiting for? come on." i smiled and moved a little. he smirked and jumped up, grabbing a branch and climbing up. when niall was up he grabbed the railing to the balcony and climbed over. when he was on the balcony he reached over for my hand. "do you still trust me?" i looked at him and smiled. "can I?" i said grabbing his hand. "i think your the only one who can answer that." he said, pulling me towards the balcony and grabbing my waist so i wouldn't fall. "thanks." i said, jumping up and sitting on the railing, then swinging my legs around and jumped down. nialls hand that was holding mine was now around my waist with the other one, as he stepped closer. "told you you can trust me." he whispered, looking down at my lips, then back up. "uh-lets go in side, its getting colder." i said, getting out of his grip and opening the glass doors, walking inside my room. not long after getting in the warmness of my room, i heard the balcony doors close and the small drift of air that was coming stopped. i walked over to my bed sat down, looking at the clock on the stand by my bed, seeing that it was 7:20.
i laid back in my warm bed and stared up at the ceiling. "you ok?" i heard niall ask. "yeah, I'm fine." "no your not." he said, and i could hear him walking over to me. "niall, I'm just tired, really, I'm fine." i said, sitting up and looking at him. "stop lying to yourself jade. you are not fine." he said, sitting next to me."how would you know?" i asked. "because i've lost someone i loved more than anything! i know how it feels! you never get over it when it happened less than a weeks ago. i know your no fine. so stop lying to yourself!" he said, raising his voice to where he was almost yelling. "jade, i don't like yelling at you, just please stop. your not fine, your not tired jade. and you know it." we sat in silence for awhile until he broke it. "why are you still here? like, why don't you go back to your moms house?" he asked. "because, my stepdad and mom always are fighting. i hate my stepdad. and now I can barley tolerate my mom." i said, looking down. "so are you just gonna stay here?" "i guess, someone needs to take care of the animals. and i don't want to go back to them." there was a moment of silence. "alone? in the house your dad died in? that sounds depressing." i looked over at him and saw that he had something he wanted to say. "thanks for making me feel better," said sarcastically, "I wasn't lying about being tired though," he nodded and got up. "where are you going?"i asked. "Home, well if my dad isn't there. then i might just, i don't know. i'll figure something out." he said and started walking out the door. "Niall," he turned around and looked at me."yeah?"
"please don't go…"