"Amber?" my mom asked, looking at my face, trying to read my expression.
"Mhm?" I said, looking up at her.
Right now I was on my bed, finishing up some homework I had gotten before leaving school today. I hadn't heard from Dillon or Liam. I was becoming a loner again.
"Do you want to stay home from school tomorrow? We could do something." My mom sat on the end of my bed, smoothing out the fuzzy comforter.
"How about we go out to lunch then shop and catch a movie, yeah? We haven't had out mother daughter days in a while and I need to spend some time with my one and only daughter." she said, grabbing my hand.
I smiled. When I was around 10, my mom and I would go out for a girls day. No boys allowed. I would save up all the money I could, from babysitting, birthdays, Christmas. Then my mom would take me to our favorite Cafe, Ollie's. We would spend an hour eating and talking about anything we could, most of the time boys.
After that she would take me to the mall upstate. It was a long drive, but to us it was worth it. You never knew when you would get quality time like this again. The mall was huge anyways, having over 350 stores to choose from. My favorites were Claire's and Justice, but now I like Forever 21 and American Eagle, not Hollister or Abrocrombie. They were too much money and so overated.
"That sounds great. Could we stop at the bank before hand though? I need to take some money out." I said, jotting down some notes before I forgot them.
"Don't worry. I just got a promotion at work so I'm earning double then before. I'll pay." she smiled and patting my leg.
"Oh my god mom that's amazing!" I said, hugging her tightly. "Thank you."
"I would do anything for you honey." She kissed my head and stood up. "Get some sleep, its getting late. Even though you aren't going to school I want you to get a good nights sleep."
I sighed, knowing, from experience, I'd loose this fight. "Okay. Goodnight."
And with that she was gone. I closed all my notebooks and placed them on my desk. I'd finish my homework tomorrow, when I felt like it.
I got under my cushioning comforter, instantly feeling it's warm embrace on me. I laid there for a while, thinking about the events that played through the day. I woke up thinking I was the luckiest person in the world, having Liam and all. Then I fall asleep knowing he probably feels like shit because of what happened. Just thinking about how he probably feels makes me guilty.
I have to remind myself I did nothing wrong, that Liam was the one that dissed me in front of his friends. I know he didn't mean it, or at least, probably didn't mean it, but it still hurt me. Knowing he probably goes off and does people just because I don't like to, is a horrible thing to think about.
After a while of laying there I realized I wasn't satisfied with everything. I needed someone with me right now, holding onto me and falling asleep with me in their arms. That's what I needed, and I was going to get it.
"Amber?" his voice sounded shocked. Although it didn't surprise me due to the fact I told him I needed some time.
"I know you probably think I don't want you near me, but right now I do." I simply stated, wanting to get right to the point so I could see him sooner.
"What do you mean?"
"Come over, please?"
"Uh, yeah, I'll be over in like 10 minutes."
"Thank you." I said and hung up the phone.
Those ten minutes I waited felt like ten hours. I just wanted Liam to be next to me, holding onto me tightly and telling me I was beautiful. Just the thought of his voice made me shiver. He had a beautiful voice that made you shiver every time you heard it. It was one of those voices you hear from one of those toned, model guys on the commercials.
I heard a tapping on my window. I ignored it at first, thinking it was just a tree branch outside, before realizing, I had no trees near my window.
I looked over, seeing a face by my window. At first I freaked out, thinking it was some stranger, rapist trying to get into my room to rape me. But then I turned on my light, and the features of the boy I loved oh so much appeared.
I smiled and made my way over to the window, dragging my small throw blanket with me. I opened the window, feeling the coldness from the air against my skin. Liam, climbed through and instantly hugged me.
"I'm so sorry Amber." he said, his words muffled by myself.
"Liam, it's okay. I've forgotten the past now and only remember what we have. I can't live without you now that I have you." I said, hugging him back.
"Are you serious? You aren't mad?"
"I never was, I was just upset that you would say something like that." I said, pulling away and looking up into the eyes I missed.
He smiled, pulling me towards my bed. He laid me down and then laid down next to me, wrapping his arms around my waist. I turned off my light and snuggled close to him.
"Have you been smoking?" I asked, noticing the smell of cigarettes on his clothes.
"Yeah." he said softly.
"Remember when I gave you a ride and you asked me if I smoked?" I nodded. "What did I say?"
"That you smoked when you were stressed..." I trailed off. "You were stressed about what happened?"
He nodded. "Why wouldn't I be. You are one of the best things that has happened to me and if I were to loose you, I would loose it myself."
I didn't say anything, but just took in what he had just said. He couldn't live without me. Neither could I. Living without him would be a nightmare for me. I love Liam dearly, he's like my hero of sorts. He protects me when I need him to and without him here, it would be awful.
"You wouldn't, and don't, go off and have sex with other girls do you?" I asked.
"Of course not Am. You're the only one I'm seeing. I wouldn't do that to you. I couldn't do that to you. It would make me feel so guilty knowing I did that when I have such a wonderful girlfriend with me." Liam replied, almost sounding offended that I would think that.
I felt Liam's fingers start running through my hair. I felt better knowing that we were all good, and that I had someone there for me. I liked having someone to snuggle with, someone new I could talk to, and someone that loved me more than you could imagine.