I pull my head up suddenly and gasp for air, niall's head still under. No. No he can't do that to me. He rises and smiles at me. I smile back and wipe the water out of my eyes. I glance at the door, niall's back facing it, to see zayn peering in. He glances at me, opens his mouth, closes it and raises an eyebrow at me. I smile grimly as he closes the glass door slowly, careful not to make a noise. I giggle as Niall turns the bubbles up more.
"Care for some refreshments?"
I shrug. He climbs out and walks over to a mini fridge. I grin as he climbs back in, holding two cans of coke. As he cracks his open, I lean back and watch the roof. I nearly scream as Harry's and Liam's faces peer down at us. How the hell did they get on the roof? How did they find the right skylight? I sigh and consider telling Niall, but shake the idea away and simply put the finger up at them. Harry covers his mouth and disappears from view. Liam puts the finger up back. Niall grabs my coke, opening it as I continues staring at them boys making faces. I look at Niall and smile as he hands me the coke.
"What were you looking at?"
He looks up. I follow his lead to see a normal skylight. I narrow my eyes and grin to myself as a curl of brown hair stands out. I look at Niall to find him looking for an answer.
"Um..I don't know. Just thinking. Cheers?"
We raise our cans and tap them together.
"Before we drink, I'd like to say a few words"
I nod and slide down into the warm water more.
"Cheers to a new friend. Cheers to the fact that you have been declared best friends with five of your idols. Cheers to watching movies and laughing at nothing in years to come. Cheers to the backstage passes. Cheers to fate. Cheers to L..."
He wriggles his eyebrows. I swallow the limp in my throat.
"Luck. Cheers to our lucky background"
I sigh in relief mentally and gulp down some of the liquid. I cover my mouth and quickly swallow my second mouthful as zayns head pops through the door again.
"What are you laughing at kat?"
I shake my head
He frowns and sits next to me. Zayn quickly resides his head. I look up to see Harry and Liam making kissing actions. I take deep breaths and look back at niall, his serious expression plastered on.
"Kat I have to ask you something"
I nod, ignoring zayn's kissy noises.
"I need some advice"
I burst out laughing as zayn raises an eyebrow. Niall draws back, hurt on his face
"You think this is some kind of joke katie?"
I shake my head
"I can't do this Niall"
He glances up at me as I walk over to the door. I open it and drag zayn into the room
"He's been distracting me. I didn't mean to laugh! Naughty zayn"
He pouts as Niall frowns at him.
"We were having a serious conversation zen!"
He shrugs and jumps into the spa. I sigh, roll my eyes and point up to the sky light. Niall looks up and groans
"Well that went well. Do I ever get any privacy? Nope. Not with the media, not with my family, not with my best friends. Bludey hell"
A flood of concern washes over more, an obvious worried look spread across my face. Zayn had shifted in his...spa seat...Niall laughs bitterly and looks me in the eye.
"It ok katie, I'm not angry. Just tired"
Zayn gets up and grabs a towel.
"I'm gunna head to the showers"
He walks out, Liam and Harry passing by as he does. They briefly chat to zayn, wave at us and follow zayn. I turn to see Niall with watery eyes. I swim over to beside him. I grasp his hand and tilt his chin so he's looking me in the eye.
"Tired of fame or no sleep?" I whisper in his ear
He sighs and let's go of my hands
"Tired of...tired of everything"
I gather him into a hug and let him lean into my shoulder. I grab his can and put it on the side.
"It's ok, all celebrities go through this"
He nods, still on my shoulder, and by the way he's gripping me, I know he isn going to let go soon.
My mind spins at his sudden breakdown. One minute he's as happy as anything and now, after one little hiccup, he's suddenly on the brink of tears. He continues to hug me tightly for a while. It's so weird having your idol grip you like this, especially since this is Niall Horan we are talking about. When he finally let's go, he avoids my eye contact. I cross my legs and face him, his eyes still drifting. I put my hands on his cheeks and turn his head.
"Look into my eyes"
He looks at me briefly, but his eyes wander soon enough. I lean forward.
"I said look into my eyes, Niall Horan"
I return to my normal position as he looks deep into my eyes. I narrow my eyes, just like Isis with louis, and search for his core emotions. He's been hiding them for a while, since they are harder to dig out than Louis'.
"Stress. Misery. Joyful. Confused. Desire"
"You're stressed from all the media. You're sick of all the hate and lies and you just want it to end. Misery is part of this. You've had suicidal thoughts once, but the sadness hasn't gone that deep. You're ont on the edge of misery. You are joyful because you love your job and you wouldn't give it up for the world. Desire because theres something you want so so so so badly, but you're confused and you have mixed feelings. You don't know how to handle the desire situation and seek advice"
He nods. I drop my hands into my lap and look down. This time he puts his hands on my cheeks.
"You would make a great councillor, you know that right?"
"People have said it before"
This time my eyes drift as the situation makes itself clear. I know for sure what he desires. I know that he is confused because I've spent time with Louis and he doesn't know how to handle it. He respects t choices, like Louis, but he doesn't know what to do. Only thing I don't know is how to handle it either.
His blue eyes fill with energy and happiness. I feel him lean in slightly, his hands still on my cheeks, but he pauses before dropping his hands and sighing.
"It's a stressful situation I'm in"
"Of course. You're under pressure because of the constant demand from you. Jet lag, fatigue, exhaustion. All contribute to the mess of things. Whatever you desire is also contributing, as it is something your not sure of-"
My eyes widen as his lips collide with mine. I blink for a moment, then put my hand up on his cheeks and close my eyes. His warm body hear buzzed throughout my body as his lips continue their pattern. I allow him to keep going for a bit, but pull back after enough is enough. I look at him helplessly. He smiles weakly.
"Sorry. It was gunna happen. Did you see it coming?"
I nod sadly.
"Yeah. It was gunna happen to one of us. No stress, just caught up in the moment. Doesn't mean anything"
I ignore his face as it twists in hurt.
I bite my lip
"I'm sorry Niall, I would be with you if I could I just can be in a relationship right now. I know a lot of people are trying to convince me-"
He shakes his head and presses his warm lips onto mine again. I pull back, this time me being the one with watery eyes.
"I do want to be with you Niall it's just-"
"Just what? Do you trust me?"
"Then why is it so hard-"
I stand up and glare at him angrily.
"Because niall! I trusted all those Guys as well! I trusted them with my heart and all they did was play with it, teased it, then eventually broke it when they got bored. Either that or I left them"
He looks up at me with a tired face
"I wouldn't do that-"
"That's what Jason said. And what will said, what Matt said and what Kayne said. But look how it turned out. I know Niall, I've known you for years, yet you've known me for a couple of days. Maybe it will work out one day, but can we just give it time? I just want to hang out with some friends"
He nods, but I can tell he isn't happy.
"I thought you were one of the two who understood"
"I do I just...it's Louis isn't it?"
I shake my head
"He understands right?"
I nod slowly
"Well maybe you should cuddle up to him. Maybe you should tease him like you played with my heart those nights I held you. Maybe you should leave me here for him, break my heart"
I squeeze my eyes shut and sit down, not stopping the tears from flowing. Niall hurries over and rubs my back, sitting down next to me.
"I didn't mean to hurt you kat. Shhhh it's ok. I do understand, I just want you so badly"
His words are meant to comfort me, but I just burst into more tears.
"I will wait. I'll wait until your ready"
I nod and hug him tightly.
"I'll wait for you"
A/n: hey guys! Thanks for all of the support! Just a reminder about a few things:
1) I know with the twitter I'm not using their real accounts, and I've been getting a few comments about it, and I'm using just their names because it's just easier
2) contest! Due date 30th! Please enter guys, overhead one entry and I can't do it without more than 2! It's a really important character too, trust me.
Actually never trust me with anything
3) I'm wiring a new story on wattpad or something, and I've called it 'Cold' it's a Niall fanfic and it would be great if u guys could read it. I'm new on their so I'm a bit of a noob when I'm figuring out the controls. Anyway, it's more of a mature fanfic, not in the sexual way but just the way I write it. Also remember I'm writing a ranting book called "MY RANTINGS!" And I've also started an example of the worst type of fanfic. It's a story written how I hate to see FAnfics written. I'm going to start another fanfic soon about a girl named...eh...idk yet but she finds out something about her new boyfriend that scars her for life. Hint hint to do with brothers hint hint. It also hasn't been tried out before as a topic so id love to see if you guys want Me to go ahead and write it. Also with the RANTINGS I need some ideas to rant about! Thanks guys <3