I tried getting comfortable on my bed but nothing was working. I was alone in the house and ever since Calum and I talked he's been keeping his distance. He said he went over to Michael's, but I honestly feel like he's avoiding me.
I pulled myself out of bed and walked downstairs to the living room. Maybe if I watch a movie or something the day will end faster. That's always my logic.
I surfed through the channels until I found an interesting episode of Chicago PD. I was getting really into it when suddenly the doorbell rang.
"I wonder who that could be." I muttered to myself.
I walked over to the front door and pulled it open to see Luke standing outside wearing a cute beanie on his head.
"Luke? What're you doing here? Are you looking for Calum cause he's not here."
Luke smiled before shaking his head.
"Actually, I'm not here to see Calum. I was wondering if you wanted to hangout?"
I bit my lip thinking about my options. I could stay home and continue watching tv, or hangout with Luke. I think I'll take the second option.
"Sure. Just let me get changed. Why don't you come inside."
I let him walk in and he went into the living room while I went up to my room to find something decent to wear.
I decided on some black high-waisted jeans, my ironman muscle shirt and a grey jumper. I pulled my long hair up into a ponytail and slipped on my white converse.
I skipped down the stairs to see Luke waiting at the bottom.
"Ready?" He asked.
"Yep. Let's go."
I locked the front door and we headed to Luke's car. He opened the door for me and I grinned.
"So where're we going?" I asked Luke once he got into the driver seat.
"Do you wanna go to the beach?" He said as he back out of the driveway.
I told him that sounded great. I haven't been to a beach in ages. Calum and I used to go there all the time growing up. We had so many memories there.
"We're here." Luke spoke with a grin plastered on his face.
We got out of the car and I raced down to the sand. I sat down and ran my fingers through the grains when I felt Luke's presence sit beside me.
"Thanks for bringing me here. It feels like it's been forever since I was last here. I can't believe I've missed so much."
I turned to Luke and noticed that he was staring at me.
"What're you staring at?" I asked with my eyebrows furrowed.
"You." His voice gave me chills even though it was sunny out. I stared back into his blue eyes wondering why I'd become so interesting to him.
"Me? Is there something on my face?" I started wiping at my face thinking there was something there but Luke stopped me by grabbing both of my wrists.
"There's nothing on your face Emi." Luke muttered. Emi? Is that what he liked to call me? It made my stomach tighten for some reason that was unknown to me.
"Then why are you staring?" I asked again.
Luke reached forward and tugged on my ponytail until my hair spilled down my back. I raised a brow in confusion.
"I like your hair down. It makes you look younger and your face glows."
I could feel my cheeks heating up. Luke was barely doing anything but he was having this major effect on me.
"Luke, you're a nice guy but nothing can happen between us. Calum's your best friend and he's also my brother. It would just make things awkward for everyone."
Maybe I was jumping to conclusions without even knowing what Luke was getting at, but I can tell he likes me and I'd be lying if I said I didn't like him too.
"So you like me?" He said with a smirk. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "That's not what I said." I got off the ground and dusted the sand off my clothes.
"Okay, so you didn't say you liked me, but you said nothing can happen between us. Nothing has though. Do you think it will? I'm not gonna lie because I want it too." Luke stood up and I guess I didn't notice before but he towered over me. He stood closer but I put my hands on his chest.
"Luke, we should just stay friends. It's better that way-"
Luke placed his hands over mine. "Do you really think that? Is it really better? Think about it Emily. Could you go a day without me doing this?"
I felt his lips graze mine. My knees started to feel weak as his hands moved over my waist. I could feel his smirk against my lips which only made things harder.
"Luke stop." I mumbled. I knew what I was saying but I didn't want him to stop. He pulled away and looked into my eyes.
"Come on. I want to show you something." He started dragging me down the beach. I was still in shock at what just happened. I looked at his face as he walked but he looked so serious like nothing phased him.
"Luke, where're you bringing me?" I asked once I got fed up from all the quiet and walking.
"Here." He pointed to a little cave looking thing.
"And why did you bring me here?"
"I wanna show you something inside it." He smiled.
I looked into the cave and squinted my eyes.
"But it's dark in there." I whined. Luke glared at me playfully before tugging me along.
"Okay okay I can walk myself." I mumbled as I walked into the cave. Luke's hand lay on the small of my back as he lead me through.
"So what do you want to show me?" I asked.
"It's just down there. Be patient." We walked in silence for a minute or so until Luke stopped me. He pulled out his phone and turned the flashlight mode on.
"A couple of summers ago, Calum and I discovered this cave. I don't think a lot of people know about it, but it felt it was our secret. Anyways, we would come here and carve into the walls and say whatever we wanted and I remember coming across something that Calum wrote. It's right there."
Luke pointed his light to the wall and I saw writing scratched into the wall.
Luke Hemmings is my best friend and I'd die for him. He could even date my sister and it would never phase me. He's my mate for life.
I stared at the wall and tried to wrap this around my head. So Calum doesn't care if Luke and I dated? But what if he was just saying that hypothetically? What of he didn't mean it?
"So? Do you trust me now?" I turned at the sound of Luke's voice. He still had the light flashing from his phone making his eyes brighten.
"Luke it's not that simple. Even if Calum said those things—and I'm not saying that I don't believe him or you—it's just that I'm not ready for a relationship. At least now."
I dropped my head too afraid to look Luke in the eyes.
"I'm sorry." My head snapped up at Luke's voice.
"What? Why're you sorry?" I asked in confusion.
"I should've listened to you in the beginning. I'm just so used to girls saying yes that when you rejected me it was new to me. I felt like I had to get you and make you mine and I never put your feelings into consideration."
I stared at Luke in shock for a moment before swallowing. It felt like the air from the cave was seeping out of the cave and I was struggling for a breath.
"This isn't all your fault Luke. I'm not innocent."
"You're everything that has to do with innocence Emily. Just– maybe we should stop talking for now. At least till I can get my feelings straight."
Should I be happy or upset? Was I passing up something so great? Was Luke really the one, and I'm too blind to see it?
We walked silently back to his car and all I wanted to do was say sorry a million times. He looked so upset but I knew that I couldn't do anything.
"Tell Calum I said hi." Luke softly spoke as he parked his car.
I nodded my head before pulling my seat belt off.
"Don't. Don't say it Emily. I don't want your apology."
He sounded harsh this time. I could feel tears filling my eyes before they became blurry and Luke was gone and I was running to the front door.