“You cheated on Luke?”
I try my best to ignore Calum’s question. He already heard me tell Luke the truth. I don’t need to say it again.
“Emily.” Calum grabs my arm and turns me around. “What’s going on?”
I can feel tears filling my eyes. Don’t cry Emily. Calum doesn’t need to see that its killing me inside.
“I don’t know what to tell you. I messed up, but I would never cheat on Luke. He means so much to me. I know I don’t show it enough but I really like him Calum, a lot. But he won’t ever talk to me again.”
Calum sighs and pulls me into his arms. I can’t control myself and start to cry. I could barely hold it all inside.
“Do you want me to talk to him?” Calum asks me. He dries my tears as I nod my head.
“Please. Tell him that I’m sorry.”
I mindlessly bounce a ball against my bedroom door. I’ve been doing this since I left Emily’s place. After she told me everything.
At first I was extremely mad. I wanted to break something. Now I’m just really disappointed. Disappointed in myself because I couldn’t judge that Emily wasn’t the one.
If I knew better, I wouldn’t be in this situation. Feeling sorry for myself. Hating Emily. Wishing that I never met her.
“It’s all his fault.”
“Who’s fault?” I look towards the door at my best friend. “What’re you doing here?”
“I came to see how you were doing. I didn’t know that Emily was cheating on you.” Calum sits across from me on my bed.
“Well I didn’t either until I went looking. I should’ve just left it alone. It would’ve felt way better if she just told me herself then me finding out on my own.”
“You know she didn’t actually cheat on you right?” Calum tells me.
“Is that what she’s been telling you? Do you actually believe that bullshit story she told me? She wanted closer my arse.” I roll my eyes and lay on my bed.
“Hey, that’s my sister you’re talking about.” Calum stares at me.
“Who do you really believe? Me or her? I’m your best friend Calum. I would never lie to you.”
“Well, I know my sister. She wouldn’t lie either. She just didn’t want to hurt you. Don’t you get it?”
“I don’t get it. If she didn’t want to hurt me she would’ve told me the damn truth. I think you should go Cal. I really need to be alone.”
“Just go Calum. Please.”
I crawl into my bed and get as comfortable as I can. I can’t stop thinking about what happened today. I feel so bad. All I wanted was to tell Luke the truth. To get all this guilt off my chest. Now all I feel is the guilt slowly building up.
It’s all my fault. I should’ve never gone to see Brad. If I could take anything back, I’d take back ever lying to Luke. I’d take all of it back.
My door makes a creaking sound making me jump up from my bed. “Who’s there?” I call out in the darkness. “It’s just me.” Calum says as he comes over and lies on my bed beside me.
“So, how’d it go?” I ask whilst turning to him. “He’s mad Emily. Really mad.” He tells me. “Did you tell him that I was sorry?” My throat feels dry as I speak but I manage to talk.
“I really tried Emily. He just doesn’t trust you anymore. He’s hurt.” Calum sits up and stares at me.
“Was it worth hurting Luke?” Calum mumbles. I shake my head. “No it wasn’t. I feel so bad Cal. I should’ve just talked to him from the start. He really hates me.”
“He’ll come around.” He gets up and walks to the door. “How do you know?” I gulp.
Calum glances at me with a small smile. “He wouldn’t be this upset if he didn’t love you. That’s how I know.”
“What? He loves me?” I shake my head. How could he love me after I hurt him like that?
“Just give him time. I’m going to go to sleep. See you in the morning sis.”
Calum leaves my room and closes the door behind himself. It takes me a while before I can totally process what Calum just told me.
Luke loves me.