"So I'll see you later?" I asked Emily as I walked her to her front door.
"Ya. Thanks for today again." A smile played on her lips as she spoke.
"You know I'll always be here for you. Don't forget that."
She nodded her head and gave me hug. "I won't."
I watched Luke drive away and I finally let myself breath. Today wasn't one of my best days. I hated thinking about him. It just ruins everything.
I opened the front door and closed it behind me. I leaned against it for balance as my mind took over.
I could've been stronger. No one needed to know about what happened between Brad and I. It was part of my past and I never wanted to think about it let alone talk about it.
"I can't believe Luke knows. Now he'll tell Calum and he'll think of me as a charity case. I don't need that. I don't need anyone."
I stormed up the stairs and collapsed on my bed. I felt like every part of my body was sore. I felt just like how I used to feel when Brad would hurt me. I shivered at the thought. Whenever he hit me I'd cry for days wondering what went wrong. I'd blame myself and let him hurt me further because I truly thought it was my fault. He would belittle me constantly. Throw names in my face. Say I wasn't good enough. He knew that it broke my heart with his constant abuse but he didn't care. He just used me. I'll never forget it.
"I let Brad hurt me but I'll never let another guy hurt me ever again."
With a sigh, I got under the covers thinking of Brad and most importantly, Luke. How will he react when I tell him I'm done with guys for good, at least for now? I hope we can still be friends. I need him in my life but nothing more then a friend.
Who am I kidding? He'll react horribly. I've already tried shutting him out once and that didn't work. But I don't want to string him along any longer. What's the point of us trying to be something when I can't even put my whole self into the relationship? Luke's never going to get what he really wants from me. I'm just a broke girl.
I rolled onto my side and looked out the window. I can't believe so much has changed in the last month. I broke up with Brad, moved back to Australia and started at a new school.
It was actually pretty funny when I broke up with Brad. I remember asking him to come over. He told me he'd be there in a few minutes. At the moment, I was packing my belongings for my fight home in the next two days.
I heard the door open downstairs. Brad had his own key to my house which was odd, but I didn't dare ask for it back.
"Emily? Where are you?" His voice called from the bottom of the stairs.
"Coming." I heard myself say. I quickly walked out of my room down the stairs until I made it to the living room where Brad was.
"So what did you call me for?" He looked bored as he slumped into the couch.
"I'm moving." I blurted out. I couldn't look at him. I was to scared to see what his reaction was. I'm sure it was horrible because the next thing I knew I was on the floor clutching my face.
"What? I told you you're not going to that school! I forbid you!" He screamed.
I shook my head. "It's not that. I'm moving back to Australia. I miss my mom and brother and my dad says I can go. You can't stop me Brad."
His eyes narrowed when I said 'you can't stop me'.
He stepped over me and left whilst slamming the door.
He was a coward. A jerk that thought he could keep me away from the people I loved the most. At the moment, I was extremely scared of what Brad would do if he did go through with what he told me that day. But he didn't. I haven't spoken or seen to him since.
I was glad that it was over. At least I'd never have see his face again.
I wiped at my eyes and pulled my long hair into a pony tail. The stress was getting to me. I could feel everyone's eyes staring and judging me, but that's something I couldn't help. I truly did love him, and honestly, when you're in love you feel like your on a drug.
That's why I'm scared to let Luke in. I don't care that he's my brothers best friend. I'm broken and I can't deal with another heartbreak. Not in this lifetime.
The next morning I decided to get to school early. That way I wouldn't have to get a ride with Calum and go the inconvenience of him interrogating me. Most importantly, I didn't want to run into Luke. If I do, I'm not sure what I'll say.
I got to class pretty early and found a spot beside the windows. I hope Calum and Luke come in later so they can't get a seat anywhere near me.
The bell finally rang 15 minutes later and kids started rushing in. I watched carefully as everyone took a seat whilst having my fingers crossed that Calum and Luke would come in later.
Almost all the seats were taken except the one behind me which was making me nervous. Suddenly, loud laugh erupted into the classroom as Luke, Calum, Michael and Ashton walked in. When Calum made eye contact with me he noticed the seat behind me. I could feel my stomach churn as he walked closer to the seat but luckily Michael slipped in.
"Mike get out of that spot. I need to talk to my sister."
I could feel my heart racing in my chest so I gave Michael a desperate look begging him to not give up his seat. He looked at me for a second before turning to Cal.
"Nah, I like this spot." He crossed his arms and placed his legs into the desk as if marking his territory. Calum glared at Michael and was about to say something but the teacher told him to take a seat. He gave me a look but I quickly broke the contact.
Once Calum took a seat I turned to Michael.
"Thanks for doing that. I owe you one."
Michael grinned. "No problem, but I have to ask you something." Michael removed his legs off the table and leaned forward. I leaned back feeling nervous.
"O-okay. What is it?" I asked horsely.
"Why are you avoiding Luke and Calum? Did something happen?"
I pushed my fringe away from my face behind my ears as I tried to swallow but my throat had gone completely dry.
"No reason." I mumbled.
Michael raised a brow obviously not believing me.
"Fine, I'll tell you. But you have to swear that you won't tell anyone, especially Luke."
Michael nodded his head, "of course. You can trust me."
I let out a breath before speaking. "Well Luke and I, it's just not working out. I think I like someone else and I don't want to hurt him so I've been avoiding him lately. Don't tell Calum I told you this. I don't want him to think I was keeping secrets. He hates that."
Michael agreed to not tell anyone and eventually the conversation ended. I turned back to face the front of the class as I let a deep breath out. I can't believe he believed that. At least now I know Michael won't be bothering me.
Once the bell rang, I made sure I got out first. As I was walking down the hall, I didn't notice any of the boys which was a relief. I turned the corner and as I walked by the janitors closet, it suddenly opened and someone grabbed me from behind pulling me in.
It was dark and whoever grabbed me had their hand over my mouth preventing me from screaming at the top of my lungs.
I finally got the hand off and pushed the person away.
"What the fuc–" the person cut me off when they turned the lights on. My eyes met Luke's and they widened in surprise.
"Can we talk?" He asked.
I wanted to scream. This wasn't supposed to be happening I'm supposed to avoid him.
"No I don't want to talk right now."
Luke stared in shock. "Why not? Are you avoiding me?" His blue eyes pierced into my soul making me shiver.
"Ya I'm avoiding you." I replied crossing my arms over my chest.
"Why? Did I do something wrong?" The blond haired boy asked softly. I tried not to focus on how sad he looked so I looked at what he was wearing. Black skinny jeans and a red plaid button up. I loved what he was wearing.
"N-no, I mean yes. You always seem to do something wrong."
It hurt me that I was speaking to Luke like that, so badly. But this was the only way to get him to leave me, or even hate me.
"Just tell me what I did wrong. I done understand what happened."
"Me neither." I shrugged my shoulders pushing away so I could get pass him.
"Emily, whatever is going on right now, you can tell me. Don't you trust me?"
Of course I trusted him. But right now I needed to get out of this closet before I start freaking out.
"Luke, please don't take this personal, but I don't want to be with you anymore. I-I can't."
With that said, I yanked the door open and ran out of the closet as fast as could.