Intermezzos. Make them stop! Make the static go away, please, because I can't take any more. Make the noise in my head go away.
I'd die for quiet. To hear myself thinking clearly, for once. To be able to turn it off too, just stop thinking. I heard it feels like floating, when you leave your thoughts to wander, but I don't think I'll ever get to feel it. That is my greatest curse, I think. The only thing I cannot relate to, is being okay. I'd love to try that. My goal in life will be to feel okay, just once, just for an instant. It will take some time, but I won't deem it impossible. I won't exactly call it possible either, I am no optimist. But for a pessimist, I will try to be optimistic. If not for me, then at least for the people I care about. Because they exist, right? Or do they?
Am I losing it? My grasp in reality, is it slipping away? Probably. Most likely. Possibly. That I will deem possible, most of all because it has happened before. And it will most likely happen again.
Just wait for it. Wait for it now.
Wait for it...
Hush hush now.