(skip to the next day)
I walked into school and seen jade and beau standing next to Chris. They were laughing and having a good time. I knew they never liked me. They used me for my weaknesses to go and report to Chris. They were her puppet she had them in the palm of her hand. I felt the tears building up in my eyes and ran into the bathroom…. I knew they never cared! I ran into the last stall of the bathroom it was the handicapped one and it was big. That’s where I always went when I had these urges. I dug through my book bag searching for that one little “make-up” bag. I never wore make-up I just used it to keep my razors in. I pulled out a razor and right when I was about to cut, jade walked in.
“avery? You in here?”
I sniffled and I guess she heard me. She pushed open the bathroom stall door and saw me
“what the HELL are you doing? Are you crazy!”
“ GET OUT LEAVE ME ALONE” I snapped
“WHY! Does beau know?? What would he do if I told him”
I just sat there. I let all the tears pour out. I couldn’t take it anymore. With her standing there I pulled the razor across my skin.
she screamed and ran and got a paper towel. She came over and wrapped my wound.
“why do you care anyway it looked like you like Chris much better?”
“we were asking here to quit bullying you, then one of the kids next to here slipped and we laughed that’s all! We care about you and doing this isn’t healthy what would you do if we told your mom or someone so they could get you help?”
“my mom doesn’t care! All my mom cares about is her alcohol and drugs not me im not important to her she never cared!”
I started crying even harder.
“why does everyone hate me?” I whispered
“we don’t hate you.”
I stood up and grabbed my bag. My little “make-up” bag was still sitting on the floor jade bent down and picked it up and her face basically turned to stone when she seen what was inside.
“h-how many are in here?”
“te-ten that’s a lot. You can get suspended for all of these. They are considered weapons! Put these in your book bag and after school I’m coming home with you and were throwing them ALL away! got it?
I shook my head and we walked out of the bathroom. Beau looked at us and ran over
“everything ok? what happened?”
“I’m fine thanks for asking”
he looked down at my arm and he looked upset
“Why? Can I just ask why?”
“Because I hate myself ok I feel like crap and I just feel better when I do it. That’s why”
He looked at the went paper towel on my arm and the little line of blood a crossed it.
“Just one but that’s because jade found me if not….”
“If not… what?”
“There would be lots more but lets just get passed this and go to class “
And with that we walked to class. Me and beau had science first again and we were working on our project again