24. like I should have before
It felt like ages I waited for the nurse. I know she told me to drink the water but, the shortness in breath and crying made it hard. Plus she wasn't here to tell me to do so, and I'm the kind of person who doesn't do what you ask unless your up my ass about it. After maybe an hour of being lost in thought about Ashton mostly, the nurse walked back into the room. She walked in front of me " sir Ashton has come out of surgery now, would you like to see her?" She asked with as much sympathy as possible. " she went into surgery" I asked holding back as many tears as I could, how could they not tell me she went into surgery. " yes we had to do an emergency surgery on her stomach, but she's alright now" I let out a deep breath I didn't even know I was holding and rose to my feet, nodding my head quickly. She gave me a small smile " alright come with me" I fallowed her into an elevator and down a long hallway filled with closed doors, making the hall seem abandoned and empty. She stopped at a room labeled 12B " she is asleep right now because of the medication she's on, but feel free to hold her hand and comfort her, if she knows your here it will encourage her to wake up sooner" I looked through the small window on the door and in the middle of room was a bed with her sleeping. She looked so tiny curled up in the center. " how long is she going to be asleep" I asked kind of scared at the answer. "well, that's up to her" the nurse said opening the door for me and gesturing for me to walk in. When I got closer I could see most of the wires were gone minus a IV attached to her arm. She was covered in bruises all over her arms and what I could see of her neck and chest. Her face was mostly clear besides a small bruise on her cheek. I've never seen those before so I'm assuming she covers them up with makeup. Her fore arms were completely mutilated with cuts and dashes everywhere. I held back tears as I walked closer to her, she looked so peaceful when she slept, yet so in pain and so breakable. I sat next to her and hesitantly held her hand in mine. It wasn't until now I saw how small they were compared to mine. I left a light squeeze on her hand " don't worry, I'm here" I took a deep breath " remember my promise.... I'm gonna try to keep it this time I swear" I looked up at the ceiling with glassy eyes to regain myself and returned my stare back on her face. "I'm not going to hurt you anymore, I'll be right here and stay with you" I looked back down at our hands sniffling up more tears " just like I should have before"