I awoke alone on the sofa with a blanket covering my body. Scanning the room for Liam I frowned realising he was gone. He must have woken up and left when he saw me next to him, why did I fall asleep? Mentally I punched myself and got up slipping out of my clothes and dragged myself to the shower. The water mixed with my tears and for a minute I wasn't sure if I was still crying or it was from the shower. Harry was partly right when he said I wouldn't wait for him, and that's not because I don't love him, he knows I can't take this. But here I am crying in the shower, how much more pain will I suffer? I know I should keep away from Liam, old flames are brewing I can feel it in every bone of my body. It's not that I'm not attracted to him, because I always have been. I can't go there, not again because if it falls apart there's no fixing it.
After my shower I got dressed and put my face on. It was 12, obviously I was late for school, so I decided to stay home. Louis left me a text this morning checking I was alright Hope you're cool, call me when you get this. I decided then to call him but his phone rang straight to voice mail. Minutes later my phone beeped We need to talk, at the party later. I wasn't sure whether I was happy to hear from Liam, or scared by his tone in the text.
The day had passed so quickly so when the clock striked 6 I left the house. I went for the I'm single and happy look which involved a black skin tight dress, heels and as much make up as I could that looked acceptable. Harry's was full by the time I got there, half the people I've never seen before. I made myself a drink of what they call punch, I'm not even sure what it consists of but it tastes nice and sweet. Louis was slaughtered when I found him, his face lit up once he saw me and he wrapped me in his arms. "Kateeeee" he emphasised my name and lent into me "I want to get laid tonight, it's been so long." Unfortunately I couldn't say the same, but I laughed anyway. Looking around the room I noticed a girl right for Louis, I pointed in her direction and he smiled. "I owe you one, Liam's looking for you" he managed to say before he left. I looked around the room and I noticed him on the sofa with Jess, I considered going up to him but I left them both.
"Niall" I smiled hugging him.
"Hey Morris, I need to tell you something" he pulled me over to the corner of the room. "I think I love him" he mumbled to me.
"Who?" I asked leaning close to him so I could hear more clearly.
"Zayn" he whispered and I bit my lip thinking about the other week. That explains why he was so mad at me, oh my god.
"Niall" I gasped holding on to him, "why don't you tell him?"
"Because he's not gay, well I don't know what he is. He slept with you so that says it all really."
I winced at his choice of words "just because we slept together it doesn't mean anything, I'm sorry."
He patted my arm "don't apologise to me Morris, in some way you needed that."
I sighed "it was wrong Niall there is no excuse for it."
"You're 18 Morris, live your fucking life" he shouted loud with a big smile on his face.
I laughed and hugged him "sometimes it doesn't feel like much of a life."
He looked at me "and I understand that trust me maybe more than any of the others, you can always talk to me."
I feel bad that I've never realised before that I could, I nodded and kissed his cheek "I love you."
He smiled "love you too, now I need to meet someone before my head explodes" he waved me off and went in the opposite direction. Biting my lip I felt flushed and I went outside to take a breather. I pushed past a couple of drunks and sat on the porch of his house. Despite the boys beside me making inappropriate comments I felt peaceful.
"Alright Morris" one of the boys winked at me. I cringed, they have no right in calling me that, they don't know me. I ignored them and looked in the opposite direction, but the comments kept coming. "Looking hot tonight, fancy coming to get a drink with me?" he smiled his fake teeth at me.
"Leave her alone Craig, she's too good for you" Liam said coldly. I looked at him and offered him a warm smile, but he brushed it off with a glare. He wrapped his hand around my arm and pulled me off the ground and moved me away from them.
"What did you want to talk to me about?" I asked tilting my head.
He brushed his fingers through his hair "I could have anyone here, Jess is a lovely girl."
"Why are you telling me this?" I said frustrated, is he trying to prove a point?
"stop talking I need to think" he growled pacing around me.
I lent against the wall and waited for him to speak. "Jess asked me out you know, she said to me that she likes me" it was almost as if he was talking to himself.
"Are you trying to make me jealous?" I said a bit too coldly.
He stopped and shook his head "jealous? My point is I could have them, I could move on and maybe be happy, but I don't want to."
"Liam get to the point" I whined.
"You're all I think about, you're all I want and I hate myself for it. Thinking of you and Zayn makes me sick" he pulled a face.
I closed my eyes pulling him close to me "stop it Liam, there's no point thinking about it."
"You think I want to think about it?" he half shouted. "I try Kate believe me I try over and over again, but there you are." He stopped for a second and looked at me "you know I still have that dare right?"
I nodded not wanting to anger him anymore.
"I could dare you to sleep with me right now" he half smiled
"You could but you won't" I said because I know him too well.
He sighed coming closer to me "I want to, I don't want to be a nice guy anymore."
"It's a part of who you are Liam, please don't change."
"Why?" he said "you don't like me how I am."
I shook my head holding his hand "you're too good for me Liam, I would break you. Look at you now, you're already half there" I cried.
"Liam" I heard Jess' voice from a distant.
"Go to Jess" I ordered him.
"Give me one reason why I should" he said crossing his arms.
"Because you're a nice guy" I said weakly and he left.