Third, they made me go third, not first or last, third. I don't know why I'm even disappointed with third, I'm such a baby sometimes. Niall woke me up this morning, he says it's payback for when I did it. I suppose it is, I was just so excited for the game, and we all know how it's turning out. First we have our Nialler who turned out to be gay, and Liam who's still in love with Morris. I'm afraid of what side it will bring out in me, I could turn out to be a girl by the end of this. I wonder what my name would be, Veronica? That would be cool I suppose. I shook my head and began to laugh, there's no over thinking this, let's just get this over with.
I spent 20 minutes in my room getting changed and sorting out my hair. Every month I go for a different style, at the moment it is plain back, almost flat to my head. Partly because I'm lazy and I can never be bothered to gel it, but that's beside the point. Banging came from my door, and I groaned opening it.
"You can't hide in here forever, come on it won't be that bad" Niall exclaimed. I'm glad he's happier than the past couple of days, I wonder if it being my turn has something to do with it. He always wants me to make a fool out myself. he finds it funny.
"I'm coming" I said with a toothbrush hanging out my mouth. Niall grabbed the toothbrush and chucked it in my room "you're stalling" he observed.
I came closer to him "you're going to regret that if they make me kiss anyone" I winked at him and ran down the stairs. "Morning" I chirped and they all smiled, everyone was here but Morrs. "Where's Morris?" I asked and they all shrugged. Peeking out the window I noticed her sitting down on the bench outside. "Be right back" I said to them and opened the door so I could go outside. Morris didn't look up when I approached her, only tensed when I sat down "everyone's waiting" I said to her and she nodded looking over at the tree. "What's wrong?" I leaned closer toward her and she looked at me.
"It's been a year since, well since..." she couldn't bring herself to say the words.
"Since your brother died" I said softly and a tear fell from her eye.
Wrapping one arm around her I pulled her close to me "people die Kate, you need to move on. Sure it sucks ass, but there's nothing you can do about it."
She raised her eyebrow "did you just call me Kate?" she asked startled.
"Well that's your name isn't it?" and she smiled hugging me.
"Do me a favour?" She looked at me standing up. "Don't mention this to anyone please?"
I nodded joining her "come on let's watch me embarrass myself" I said making her laugh.
To be fair there isn't much anyone could say that would embarrass me. That's how I've been built, when I was younger I was bullied and since then I couldn't give a shit what people thought of me. Niall dared me to eat a bug, it wasn't something I expected and to say I shit myself was an understatement. We all piled outside as Niall found one I could eat, a big one I might add. I closed my eyes and thought of chocolate as I shoved it into my mouth. The texture was soft and squidgy making me inwardly cringe. Juice surfaced on my tongue and in that moment I knew I was going to be sick. I opened my eyes wide as I ran over to the nearest tree, and puked up the bug. Niall was on the floor at this point laughing his ass of, I scowled at him as I came back over. I started to laugh "you know I thought this day would involve in me being naked, or me kissing some people, nothing like this" I spat out the leg of the bug and my stomach growled at me. "I don't feel well" I said holding my mouth in case I puked again.
"Fine" Louis said, he looked around and then smiled "kiss Niall."
"Done" I shrugged grabbing Niall's face and kissed him roughly. Maybe I was a bit too rough as when I pulled away everyone stared at me.
Niall spat and wiped his mouth "couldn't you have washed your mouth first?" he said.
"Well considering you were the one who dared me that, no I guess could not."
He laughed shaking his head, and I noticed a blush appear on his cheek. I shook my head reading too much into it as I looked at Harry "bring it" I said to him.
"Kiss Morris" he said and we both looked at each other.
"Harry?" Morris said as she squinted her face. Harry is being a dick to her, especially since it's been a year and all.
"No harm by it, it's just an experiment I suppose."
"An experiment what the fuck Harry?" she growled. But she gave in and looked at me, a smile creeping over her face "fuck it." She got up and came over to me sitting on my lap, instantly I was turned on. She pulled me closer and kissed me, for too long as I heard Harry huff. Eventually she pulled away and jumped off me rubbing her mouth, "done."
In that moment I wanted to fall down a hole, or push Harry down one. Either one suited me fine. I've probably made everyone feel uncomfortable because of him, and for once I couldn't care less. I took one last look at Harry and pushed past him, I needed to be alone. I decided to visit my brothers grave, and I noticed a black flower next to it. It had a note stuck to it, and I picked it off the floor and stared down at it. Part of me thanks you for doing it, because I would have done it myself. What you put her through is unforgivable in my eyes, and you got what you deserved. But don't worry mate, I will always be there to look after her, the way you should have H. I felt his arms wrap round me and in habit I lent into him, he always made me feel calmer, even if it was him making me angry. "I knew I'd find you here" he whispered and I turned to face him.
"You never said anything to me?" I asked.
"Because I know you Morris, you don't like talking about your feelings. He hurt you and you loved him, it's something you need to deal with. But I'm here for you, I always will be no matter where you are or who you are with."
My stomach was in knots as I payed attention to the last part. Who you are with. "You're leaving me?" I sucked in air as I found myself catching my breath.
He shook his head "I could never leave you, even if I knew it was best for you because I'm stubborn. What I put you through is disgusting, I'm disgusted at myself for making you do that" he growled. I put one hand on his cheek "I'm stubborn too, I would never leave you Harry. It would kill me and I couldn't bare to think about how it would feel. You are everything to me, and you act like you're not. You try and get into my head and say what I feel, but you have no idea."
He kissed me "I love you" he said to me. I closed my eyes kissing him back, and I found myself lost in him.
I kissed Morris on the cheek once she returned back home and she smiled "thank you" she whispered. Louis reading her mind lifted her up and kissed every inch of her face "we all haven't forgotten Morris, and we are all here for you," he said holding her in his arms. She wrapped her arms around him and cried, this felt too personal, and a thing between best friends so I left them alone. I slumped down next to Niall on the sofa and lent back on the cushion, I'm already exhausted and I still have one more to go. Luckily it was only Morris, and she wasn't in the state to be harsh. Everyone seem's to be ending theirs in a truth, and I might as well I haven nothing else to hide. Morris thought for a while "what are you most afriad of?" she asked.
"Of losing you guys, you are the most important thing in my life and if I lost any of you I don't know what I would do" I said softly and I felt Niall wrap his arm around me.
"You will never lose us buddy" he whispered and I felt myself blush.
Niall being gay changes nothing, if anything I feel more comfortable around him, who knows why. But he is perfect just the way he is, no matter what his sexual preference is,