Omg sorry this took so freaking long:( I feel bad and im sorry this chapter is shit! I have a bit of writers block and this is just filling it in for now. Let me know in the comments if you want her to end up like how its leading up to! Thanks:**
"Their so cute!" I heard a voice say sarcastically. I lazily opened an eye and saw the boys smirking. I bet I know who said that.
"Seriously Louis." I sighed and attempted to get up, but Zayn's arms were tightly wrapped around my body. The boy's snickered then Zayn finally woke-up. He let out a soft moan from his throat the released me, starting at stretch. I stood up an shouldered past Louis who just quietly scoffed and shook his head with a smirk. I stopped at my bed and started pulling clothes out.
"Were taking a plane to Australia today. We're having the bus shipped across the pond on a boat, so pack for a couple days." Niall said sitting on my bed. I nodded and started stuffing clothes into one bag and shoes into the other. I moved on into the bathroom throwing my hidden tampons in my bag and make-up as well.
"You okay?" Niall finally asked. I walked back and gave him a firm nod with a tight smile. He sighed and dragged his enormous duffel bag to the front door where Paul was waiting with the vehicle. I handed him my suitcases and then walked back inside to get some clothes on. I also left hair in its natural state of cascading waves down my back. I put on my longsleeve white with blue sleeves, 'Lazy Ninja Nights' shirt with a ninja cat on it. I love that shirt to death. I slid on blue skinny's and put on a small amount of mascara and cover-up. I put nothing on my lips or jewelry due to the fact that were just travelling. I put on my mid-lower leg grey Uggs and tan cargo coat with red, grey and white plaid sweater underneath. (Sorry there's no picture, it wasn't working.)
I walked out and zipped up my jacket in a swift motion to protect me from the cold fall air sweeping in. It blew hard against me and I ran to the vehicle and tried to open the door, but it was locked.
"Hey! Hey!" I yelled over the whooshing banging against the shaded window helplessly. "Let me in!" I screamed, close to tears from frustration, anger and frankly just being annoyed. I gave up and slid to the ground, curling up in a ball to try and hide from the wind. I let a silent tear slip out of my squeezed eyes and then I got up and kicked the door as hand as I could.
"Fuck!" I cursed and held my toe in pain. I marked a good dent from that kick. I hissed and rocked my foot, not to mention the wind almost blowing me over. I finally just screamed. Not a word for a curse, just a shrill scream even though I knew nobody would hear me.
So some of you are probably thinking, 'Wow that bitch is sure overreacting' 'She must be on her period' 'Get a life' 'Stop trying to get attention' and so on. Sure, maybe I am overreacting or maybe i'm not, but just think. If you were stuck in a wind storm, Frustrated, Unstable, Pissed, Sad, In the midst of abusion by your mother and holding it all up inside, You just need to let out all your feelings.
I screamed again and balled my hair up in my clenched fists, up to my scalp and screamed again. I kneeled down and screamed and screamed. I finally just started crying all out. I kept on screaming until my throat hurt like hell and I heard people calling my name. I think i'm loosing my mind.
"Jenny," Niall gasped with Louis and Zayn beside him. Inside I heard two voices instructing me.
"Just shut them out. Shut everyone out." Devil-me smirked, While angel me said "Let them in. Talk to them. Let them help you."
"She doesn't need them!" Devil-me yelled. "Yes she does!" Angel-me shouted back. The voices started fighting and got louder and louder.
"SHUT UP!" I screamed squeezing my eyes shut, tightening the grip on my roots and pulling my body together closer. I could faintly hear the boy's freaking out because their cowards. Sorry not sorry. Oops. The voices just got louder and started blocking out Louis, Niall and Zayn. I started kicking at the air helplessly and screaming as the voices infected my head and body.
Arms picked up my scrambling body and put me in the back of the vehicle. I heard everyone else get in and start asking what happened. I imagined devil-me finally overtaking Angel-me and pushing her out of my head to her death. Holy crap I have quite the imagination.
I snapped back and looked around with big eyes. "She's up." Louis announced giving me a fake grin. I looked out the window not wanting to socialize with anyone in any single way.
God dammit I don't want to talk to them at all.
Just shut them out.