33. October 30th 2015
I haven't written in this in ages, and I don't care. I just needed somewhere to write this down.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know what job I'm going to do. Everyone's saying 'You'd make a great teacher', 'I thought you were going to become a teacher', when I just do not want to. I hate children. I have always hated children.
Yet it looks like that'll be my only career option. Realistically it'll be impossible getting a career as a writer. I'll have to have something else as the main job that pays the bills, but I don't know what. The only thing I'm good at is writing, and even then it's only moderately. Sociology and Psychology, the two other A Levels I take, were huge mistakes. I only took them as I needed two more, and English Language and English Literature...well, I'm honest, I suck at them. English Literature puts me off books even more than I've already been put off them, and English Language focuses on accent, dialect, and conversations, which I can't understand.
I have no idea what to do. I don't want to be a teacher, but I can't think of any alternatives, so I'm probably going to have to be one. There's nothing else I can think of doing.
I just want some help. Some genuine guidance.