Liam and I barely made it to first period.
We made it into the choir room and I sat in my seat trying not to get attention.
"Liam sit by Jaylin, until we figure out where you belong." Mrs. Ross said. Well there goes the whole ‘no attention’ thing.
Liam smiled, and walked slowly over to the empty seat next to me. I felt blood rush into my cheeks. Am I actually blushing? He will absolutely never in a million years, like me. I just met him. I’m being ridiculous.
"Well, hey there!" Liam whispered to me.
"Hi," I replied. The hell? I quietly laugh to myself and direct my attention back to Mrs. Ross.
“What is the difference between a G on the top space of the staff, and a G on the 4th line from the top of the staff?” she asked. I rose my hand patiently. “Jaylin?”
“They are different octaves.” I answered.
“Very good. So today, we are going to work with different octaves and see if we can match the pitches with our voices.”
I haven’t seen Carmen since this morning, which is a good thing. Bethany better not try any of that crap.
I got my lunch and looked around the cafeteria for Liam.
He was sitting next to Zayn, Niall and Perrie, with Jade and Raeden on the other side. I wonder where everyone else is.
Raeden saw me, and waved me over. I walked towards the table slowly, in my converse, hoping that they wouldn’t let me fall. I could feel people staring at me. I don’t think I like this whole everyone can see you thing.
I sat down quietly next to Raeden. I looked down at my tray and pushed my spaghetti around with my fork. I don’t feel very good. I picked up a small piece of noodle, and placed it on my tongue. I don’t want people to notice how uncomfortable I am. That would be exceedingly awkward.
“Can I talk to you, well, not here?” Liam asked. I didn’t look up, knowing he wasn’t talking to me. Instead, I only put another noodle in my mouth. I chewed it slowly. “Jay?” Liam said. I continued to stare at my food. I swear he just said Jay. No, he must have said Jade.
I looked up, only for a second. Everyone at the table was staring at me, intensely.
“What?” I asked, completely confused, “Why are you all staring at me?”
“Liam was talking to you,” Rae whispered to me.
“Sorry,” I told Liam.
“It’s okay. Let’s go talk,” he replied.
“Okay,” I nodded. I stood up and followed him out.
We walked just out of the cafeteria doors, and down the hallway a bit. We stopped at my locker and I looked at Liam. His eyes looked into mine softly, and he rose his hand up to my face. He grazed a finger against my cheekbone. I looked into his eyes, confused.
Liam does not like me. It’s only been one day! His first day in fact! He probably just thinks I’m bulimic or something because I barely ate my lunch. I stayed quiet, not knowing what to say. Liam pulled me into a hug.
It was soft and caring, yet I had no idea why he was hugging me. I hugged back. He squeezed me harder, right before letting go of me, and making my feet hit the floor. I didn’t even realize that I was standing on my tip toes. How lovely of me. I’m an idiot.
“Wish I knew back then, what I know now. Wish I could somehow go back in time and maybe listen to my own advice. I’d tell her to sp-“ I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and quickly silenced it.
“Sorry,” I told him.
“You really believe in your sister don’t you?” he asked me.
“Of course, she’s my inspiration. When I was little we used to dance and sing on the kitchen table for our friends. It was fantastic.”
“So what’s wrong? I may not have known you before today, but I think something’s wrong.”
“I guess I’m scared. I don’t know.”
I have no idea what inspired me to actually say what was on my mind.
“Of what, love?”
“Everything. I feel like I’m on stage again, and that’s not where I want to be. At all. I hate it. Everyone’s watching me all the time and I’m sick of it. AND IT’S ONLY BEEN ONE DAMN DAY!”
“Everything’s going to be okay. You don’t have to tell me anything until you’re ready, but I’m here for you. All of the time.”
“Okay, thanks.” I whispered.
“Let’s go back to lunch yeah?” Liam asked.
“Yeah,” I nodded.
As I walked home, I emerged with confidence. I threw my headphones in as fast as I could, and scrolled through my music.
Life is Beautiful by Vega 4 boomed through my speakers and I began to dance.
“Life is beautiful!” I sang along.
I danced through the entire song, and when it ended I was standing at the end of my driveway.
I looked up at the front steps just as Sweater Weather began to play. A worried looking Liam was standing there. Staring at me.