I screamed and sat up in a cold sweat. I was panting and gasping for air. I looked around and noticed I was back in my room. I sighed and laid back and stared at the ceiling. My heart was still racing out of my chest and hurting. I carefully sat up again and looked over noticing Niall staring at me. He walked over and sat down next to me.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah..." I mumbled.
"Panic attack..." I sighed.
"Oh..." He looked down at his hands nervously. "Who's Jake..."
I felt my body start tensing up. Did I really call out his name in my sleep....? I felt myself start shaking and my heart started racing harder.
"Xena...it's fine if you don't want to tell me.." He said standing up. I reached out and grabbed him. Our eyes locked and he could see the pain, the fear flooded in my eyes. He sat back down and embraced me in a tight hug.
"He....was my boyfriend...." I muttered in a soft whisper.
"Was? Did he break up with you?" He looked at me with confusion.
"No..." I felt the tears start rushing out of my eyes. "He died...and it's my fault..."
He hugged my tighter trying to comfort me. After a few minutes the tears went away and the heart ache started disappearing. I've never really talked about Jake to anyone so I felt some pressure lifting off my chest.
"Please don't tell the others..." I whispered.
"Secret is safe with me." He smiled at me.
"Thank you." I hugged him this time.
Afterwards I walked downstairs to the sound of arguing again. When will this end? I walked in just as Harry was about to swing on Louis. I ran between them and felt the sting of his hand slide across my face. I gasped for air but all the came out was a soft painful cry. I felt like I was going to fall but Louis wrapped his arms around me protecting me. Harry started taking steps backwards.
"Oh my god!" Liberty yelled running towards me.
"What the hell did you do Styles?!" Niall yelled clinching his fists and walking towards Harry. Zayn and Sarah walked towards me with worried eyes. Liam walked over towards Harry keeping Niall away from him.
"Are you alright Z?" Louis asked.
My heart stuck a cord when he called me Z. I heard it pound and pound. It hurt so much I wanted to cry. "Yeah I'm fine..." I lied.
"How dare you hit a girl!" Sarah yelled.
"Hey chill! It's her fault she walked between them!" Liam said defending Harry.
"Why were you going to hit Louis?" I asked and everyone's attention turned towards me.
"None of your business." Harry hissed.
"Since you hit me I think it is!" I sassed back.
"Well sorry babe I ain't telling you shit." He spat at me.
I lunged myself at him tackling him to the ground. With his arms tucked under my knees I was in control.
"Told you she wanted me. She just can't keep her hands off of me." He laughed.
I was about to slap him but my hand turned into a fist and punched the stupid grin off his face. I stood up weakly and walked towards the stairs. Liam helped him up and I could hear him groan.
"Serves you right creep." I hissed walking up the stairs.