28. I'm Sorry
As I sat crying I heard a knock at the door. I didn't move, I couldn't, I didn't want to see or speak to any one. There was a knock again and I forced myself to slowly haul myself towards the door.
I crawled pathetically over to it when I noticed that a note had been slid under the door. I frowned at it at first, before picking it up, leaning against the door as I sat on the floor and stared at my name written on the front for a while.
Finally I got the courage to wipe away my tears from my face, my eyes still stinging painfully as I started to unfold the note. I started to read, my heart beat quick and loud in my ears.
I'm such an idiot sometimes. I don't always think and I do things I regret a lot. I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm so sorry. I'll never forgive myself for it. I was just annoyed. You mean so much to me. I want you to be happy but when you push me away I feel sad. When I get sad I do stupid things and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I'll never be able to stop saying sorry to you because I'm a complete b*****d and I deserve to be shouted at. I realise now that you're much better of without me. I'm a complete idiot, I shouldn't have let you trust me. I shouldn't have let myself fall in love with you because I always hurt people in the end. Always.
I love you Annie to the point that it hurts. I shouldn't love you though. You're right that we shouldn't have started something against Harry's rules. I've been so foolish and so stupid. I'm so sorry for everything, I hope you can forgive me. I won't be able to forgive myself and you don't have to forgive me because I deserve it. I just can't go without saying this.
I will never forget you, I promise you. I will never forget you Annie but I have to go now. I have to leave you alone like you told me from the start and stop hurting you. I don't want to hurt you any more and I'm sorry I ever did hurt you. I'm so sorry Annie.
I love you.