55. Do you want me? Or do you want me dead?
"You don't have to tell me anything." Crap.
"L-L-Louis..." I stuttered. "I-I-I didn't mean this, it meant nothing. This means nothing. Sorry Li, sorry Louis."
"Katy, you can't keep doing this." Louis murmured.
"Don't you think I know that." I sighed. "I can't continue with this anymore. With.... us" I couldn't believe the words that just came out of my mouth. Louis' face drained of colour. A single tear fell from his eyes. He said nothing but turned around and left. As soon as he turned the corner I broke , tears escaped my eyes and ran down my face. I can't take it anymore. I'm done. I'm done. I felt arms around my shoulders. I blinked away some tears and looked up. Liam was looking down at me and gave me a small smile. I wrapped my arms around his stomach and cried so hard. I was holding him so tight hoping that I could somehow fix myself.
I don't know what to do I can't seem to stop saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. I hurt people to much .I hurt them so bad. I'm a monster that needs to be locked away before i hurt anyone else.
I let go of Liam and ran. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me. I ran all the way through a wood. I ran until I felt like i couldn't breath. I came to a cliff. It was overlooking a river that was raging against the rocks below. What did i do. I fell onto my knees crying. What to do , what to do. I mess everything up .
I can't fucking do it anymore!
I'm pure evil. I don't know what to do without Louis but I think - I - I - I love -L-L-Liam.
I need to leave, get away for a while.
A/N So hello , its Sarah aka DeathRoyal :) I'm at Katy's right now and i sort of stole her computer to write this . What do you think. Shes on my phone so I carried on writing for her. I wrote from the last speech :))))