After the group intervention we all were dismissed to go to the cafeteria. Luke was the last one to leave. I noticed he walked the opposite way as everyone else and decided to follow him and see what he was doing. He turned a corner and I heard a door open, then close. I turned the same corner and saw a door that goes to a little outdoor area. Luke was standing in the middle of the grass just looking up at the sky. I stepped outside and walked over to him.
"What are you doing out here," I asked.
"It's an escape from the inside."
"Aren't they nice to you?"
"Well, Louise, don't ever forget that what you see isn't all there is. There's more that goes on behind closed doors than you can ever imagine." He replied.
I didn't really know what to think. He was right, they could be pestering everyone whenever we go to individual interventions and not know it. But I doubt they would do that. Aren't they trying to heal us? Make us better? I don't know.
"Well, are you going to lunch, Luke?"
"No, I think I'll stay out here."
I walked back inside and he glanced at me through the glass door, I could see his face change from a blank expression to a grin as I turned around. I ended up getting caught by myself in the hall almost to the cafeteria. The workers told me that if they catch me again I'll have to eat lunch in my room. I would be glad to eat in there, away from all of them.
I ended up eating alone in the cafeteria. I thought maybe someone from group today would comfort me on my first day but no one did. They all had their own seats with eachother. The supervisors didnt even sit with me. They just watched from stools at each door making sure we wouldn't scratch ourselves with sporks and straws.
The only thing I could think of the whole time I was eating was Luke. Before I met him I pictured him as some creep and how I was going to yell at him for saving me but now I just want excuses to have conversations with him. I know that I should be focused on getting healthy, but he has my full attention.