I didn't really eat much. I just couldn't get my mind off of Luke. I had a little bit of the soup they were serving but all that I was worried about was this guy I just met. I decided that I was going to find him after I was done. I needed to talk to him. I had to. Luckily, my individual intervention was in thirty minutes so I had time to go and find him,
I quickly dashed back to the little porch that he was at before I left to eat and he was still there. But, this time, he was propped up against the windows. He saw me out of the corner of his eye and looked down at his wrists. I didn't know what he was thinking, but I hoped he would tell me soon. I went out there and sat down beside him. He didn't make eye contact, he just kept looking at the sky.
"Do you ever wish you were something else?" He asked.
"Well, yeah. I guess..why?"
"Sometimes I just think of what it would be like to be an animal. To be free to do whatever you want, able to walk or run where ever you want to go...Be the controller of your own life.." He kept looking at the sky.
I couldn't tell if he was being serious or not, his face never changes. I looked up at the clouds and looked back at him. His brow furrowed.
"I guess it's just me, then." He murmured.
"I don't exactly think I wish I was something else, I wish I was somewhere else." I explained. "Sometimes I feel as if im drowning. You don't need water to drown. I always wish I was in Wonderland. Just be set free from all the pain and cruel torture."
He actually looked at me, "Don't let your wounds turn you into someone you're not."
I didn't quite understand what he meant by that. He could tell me his thoughts but mine were shot down? I felt really upset and confused. But he just kept looking at the sky and then back at me. I could tell he was hiding a million things behind those dark brown eyes, and I wanted to leave and not find them out real quick.