When I got back to where Jackson lived, he stared at me like he hadn't expected me before tomorrow. And I understood why, cause I hadn't planned to come home already.
But if I had staid there, I might end up hurting him. I didn't want to hurt him, I didn't know why, but I just didn't want to.
"Why are you already here? I thought you would sleep with him. Did anything go wrong?", he asked with a worried look on his face.
"I was planing of sleeping with him, but when he cut his finger, I couldn't take it for very long. I didn't kill or feed on him, but I was close to.", I said with a tiny voice. I felt weak, just the thought that I almost had gave in to my craving for blood was enough for me to feel weak, like I wasn't able to be with humans anymore, not without killing them.
"I understand. So what are you planning on now?", he asked with a fatherly voice.
"I... I don't know. But I don't think it's a good idea to se him anymore, cause I don't want to kill him or something. So I guess it's over."
"Okay, but you're living in the same city as him, so don't you think you will meet him sooner or later?"
"No I... I was thinking of leaving town, so there wouldn't bee any change to see him again.", I said, but somehow deep down I wasn't sure, cause something told me that we'll meet again. Maybe not tomorrow or the day after that, but someday we will. Just the thought of it was enough for me to leave. Cause if we'll meet again, then I maybe would be able to control myself.
The days past and the search came up with no results. I couldn't find her, even when I thought I had found the right place, it just turned out that she wasn't there.
Sometimes I saw a girl or two, that really looked like her from behind and every time my heart started to beating faster, but slowed down when a saw the girls face. Every time that happened I felt so disappointed that it almost killed me.
But days turned into weeks and weeks into months. And soon it was a year since I last saw her. But still I hadn't given up, I was still searching for her. I had told the boys what I was doing, what I was searching for, but they all told me to let it go, let her go. And that was the point, I couldn't. I didn't know why, but I just couldn't let her go.
After a year we were on tour in Italy, the country where I knew she came from. At that time I had lost every hope of seeing her ever again. That was why I was so surprised when I saw her.
We were about to give autograph to the millions of fans, when I got a glimpse of a girl who looked so familiar. And in that moment I was in some kind of shock. I saw her for the first time of a year and I couldn't believe that it actually was her. But my eyes wasn't cheating me, it was her.
She was with some of her friends, two girls and a boy, or I guess it was her friends, cause she was smiling, laughing.
At first she didn't notice me, but after some min. she saw me looking at her. When our eyes met I looked back at the fan in front of me. But I glanced at her one time more, just to she that she had stopped smiling and laughing.
When our eyes met he turned to look away from me. He looked back at the girl in front of him, another fan that would get his autograph.
Now I know why Jackson, Melissa and Charlotte had dragged me here. They hadn't said anything, they just said that we were going to a concert. But we were to late to see them play, so I didn't know that it was One Direction that was here.
I was so surprised, that I didn't noticed Melissa was talking to me.
"Hallo! Luna are listening to me, or are you too busy looking at Zayn. Haha", she began to laugh at me and shook her head. "Oh, in a whole year you had said that you didn't care about him, but you're clearly not listening to me any more."
"What? Yeah I know, but... I actually don't know what I feel for him, I mean... I don't really know him. We only met once and that ended in a disaster."
"Right, that wasn't the best date, but now you have the chance to change it. You just have to walk up to him and pretend that you there to get a autograph. So easy and simple is that!"
"Okay, I'm gonna try. But if anything goes wrong..."
"Then we will bee there for you!", she said and interrupted me.
"Thanks, you're the best friends I ever could imagine!", I said and hurried over to the group of fan-girls.
It took ages to finely make it through the girls. There was so many that it was unbelievable. But then I finely stood in front of them.
They looked a bit tired, maybe cause they had been awake for who know how many hours. But still they looked good.
When I saw Zayn my heart skipped a beat and started to beat faster. Maybe I was a little in love with him, but I wasn't ready to admit it. Cause still I didn't know him very well.
"Hey, and who are?", Harry asked with a sweet voice, even when he was tired.
"I know her!", Zayn said and sounded awake, like when someone had held ice cold water over you.
"You know her? Then who is she?", Louis asked.
"I never get her name, so actually I don't really know.", Zayn said
"Umm guys... I'm standing right here. Why don't you ask me?", I said, tired that they were talking about me , like I wasn't there.
"Sure, then who are you?", Niall asked.
"My name is Luna and I'm from Italy, as you probably can see. But now I'm only visiting a friend here, cause I moved to England. Anything ales you want to know?"
"Yes, why did you just leave back then? Without ever saying anything?", Zayn asked. The rest of the boys just looked confused.
"I... Just had to fix something up in my head. I wasn't sure about what I was doing, and especially not with you. But now I'm here, so was that enough answer for you, cause I can't really explain it in another way."
"That's fine. But I still don't understand.", Zayn said while looking down
"And I still don't understand, were you know this girl!", Liam said
"That's a long story!", we both said at the same time.