I waited for the entire day, but she still didn't want to see me. Everyone went home at around dinner time, but Luke, Ashton, and Ashley stayed. Harry said he will come pick up Ashley later. So the four of us sat quietly in the waiting, and I kept imagining Casey's fragile body lying on the floor- helpless. Why did she cut herself? Why did she want to kill herself? I felt so bad and guilty; everything was my fault. If only I drank less and kept myself conscious, she wouldn't be lying in the hospital bed now.
"I'm gonna go in and see how she's doing," Luke said. Why does he care so much about her?! She's my wife, not his! I'm too tired to fight with Luke.
I didn't try to kill myself; I just wanted to stop the pain in my chest. I lied helplessly on the hospital bed with a breathing mask over my face and an IV in my arm; I didn't know what to do. As I stared at the ceiling blankly, Luke came in after a few quiet knocks.
"Hey, Case," he whispered.
He didn't say anything; he just came to sit beside my hospital bed and hold mine left hand in his hands. We stayed like this for a minute without any talking until I broke the silence.
"Is Niall still out there?" I asked.
"Yea...he didn't leave at all. He's been here since the morning and he hasn't eaten anything," he answered more than I cared.
"Tell him to go home. I don't wanna see his face at all," I said coldly.
"He really want to see you! He wants to know why you drafted a divorce, and he wants to apologize to you."
"I didn't file or draft a divorce; I made that up so I have a legit reason to not see him."
"But he really wants to see you! He said that it was all a misunderstanding, and he was drunk so he didn't know what he was doing!" Luke tried to explain for Niall, but I just couldn't listen to him anymore.
"Luke! Stop explaining for him. He made a promise not to break my heart like my ex, and he should have been careful about letting these things happen! I don't care if he was drunk or not! He broke his promise and he broke my heart, that's all I know..." I screamed at Luke with tears running down my face. Then I looked away.
"I'm sorry," he said.
"You didn't do anything wrong."
"Casey, I'm here for you, please remember that," he said gently.
With Ashley and Ashton with me on the waiting room, it got a bit awkward. But then Ashley spoke.
"Niall, do you wanna go home now? You haven't eaten anything for the entire day!" she asked.
"I'm fine," I answered.
"Bro, you really should go home. We are all going home." Ashton said.
"No, I wanna wait here."
"You can't do or change anything by sitting here waiting," Ashley commented bluntly.
"I know, but I just...I don't know what to do."
"Just go home! Maybe wait until Casey calms down and gets better, we'll get her home," Ashley said and patted my back.
"Fine..." I said and walked towards Casey's room to take a last look. I mouthed "I'm sorry" into the glass though she wasn't looking at my direction. I walked back to the waiting area and asked Ashton, "Can I get a ride home? I don't think I'm mentally stable to drive..."
"Sure, man! I'll just go grab Luke and we'll all go home together."