WARNING A lot of swearing in this chapter :)
**** back to the morning ****
I wake up by someone screaming. I groan and get up out of bed. I walk downstairs and see Brooke running around.
"What the hell is going on in here?!" I shout, while walking into the kitchen. I can see my mum cleaning up some sort of liquid from the floor.
"Brooke is amazingly hyper active and throws everything around the room. And why are you so grumpy?" My mum says.
"I just am" I snap. I walk into the living room and plop down on the couch. "Brooke, go away!" I say when she runs by me again. She huffs, but does leave.
I really don't mean to act like this, I'm pissed off and sad and hurt, you know? I mean, everyone has a bad day sometimes, everyone will have a broken heart sometime. Yes, my heart is literally broken. I thought he really loved me. I totally went for it, while it was just a joke to him. How can you do something like this? If you really do these kind of things, you deserve to go to hell, sorry not sorry.
I sigh, trying to hold back my tears. My phone starts buzzing, so I pick it up. Hopefully it's not Josh again, he keeps calling and texting me.
I look at it.
Come to the pond at 7PM x
What the hell is this?
Who is this?
You'll find out tonight, if you're coming ;)
So you are coming?
Yeah, i guess...
I wait for another respond, but it doesn't come. I put away my phone and lay back on the couch. I turn on the tv and watch a boring show, I don't even know what it's about. I sigh and close my eyes. Soon enough I doze off.
I wake up, all sweaty and I'm seriously panting. I had a dream about tonight, that it was Mason who told me to come. He was standing with a gun in front of me, ready to shoot me. Luckily it was just a dream, or well, I hope it is. I'm actually scared to go there now, maybe I can cancel it. I grab my phone, ready to text the person.
Ugh, why would I? It probably isn't him, maybe it's someone I already know, I don't know, we'll see.
I walk upstairs to get a shower. After that I walk into my bedroom with a towel wrapped around my waist. When I find some nice clothes, i put them on and I walk downstairs again. I walk into the kitchen.
"What's for dinner?" i ask my mum.
"Lasagna" She says, while grabbing the ingredients. I nod and help her making it.
"You still haven't told me what happened yesterday..." my mum says, a little while later. I freeze and take a deep breath.
"Josh and I are, sort of, not together anymore. Well, we haven't really broken up yet, but I'm completely done with him" I say, quietly.
"Why? You two were so in love when I last saw you two together" My mum says. I nod.
"I know, but he is a fucking asshole, a fucking liar and I fucking hate him" I say, my voice getting louder with every word. I release my anger by ruining the tomatos for the lasagna.
"Wow, easy with the food. Why do you hate him? Did he do something?" My mum says, trying to figure out what I mean.
"It was all fake! It all was a joke, he was getting money, if he dated me!" i say, tears filling my eyes. My mum is looking at me with wide eyes.
"Are you serious?" She asks and I nod. A tear finds it's way down my cheek. I wipe it away. "Wow, I never thought that he would be like that. It looked like he really loved you. Oh god, George I'm so sorry for you" My mum says. Tears are now streaming over my face.
"Well, he doesn't love me and he is just a dick!" i shout and I walk to my room. I let me fall down on the bed and I just bawl my eyes out. Jeez, I'm such a girl.
Later that night at 6;45, I leave to go to the pond. When i walk there, nerves start to get to me. What if it actually is Mason? Or maybe someone wants to kidnap me.
I reach it and I look around. Everywhere are standing candles in the snow, which looks so beautiful. I look around, but I can't see anyone. Suddenly someone grabs my shoulder and turns me around. I look right into those familiar, blue eyes. I take a step back.
"Really? You?" I say. It comes out pretty harsh, but he deserves it.
"George, I'm so sorry and I really want to make it up to you" He says, looking at me.
"Oh, so you just think, let's light up a few candles and he will forgive me for lying to him? For faking a whole relationship, while he thought it was all real? huh? Do you really think that, Josh?" i say. He looks down at his shoes.
"No, and I know that nothing wil be good enough for you to forgive me, and you have all the right to react like this. I just....for me it was just fake for the first few hours, George. When I told you I loved you, the feelings, everything was real, except for the beginning..." he says.
"I don't care, I don't want a relationship which is based on a lie. We are over, Josh. Except it or not" I say and I turn around. I start walking away.
"No, George, please don't do this, I love you so much, I'm so sorry! Please, George!" Josh shouts. I just keep walking. Josh suddenly grabs my arm, turns me around and presses his lips to mine.
Oh god, I missed these lips so bad, but I don't care that my whole body is going wild because of this kiss. I push him away and take a few steps back.
"Don't touch me" I say, I really am angry now. I turn around again and start running. I can hear Josh running behind me. But because there is snow everywhere, it's slippery. And of course, I slip and fall to the ground. Josh didn't see it coming and falls down too, on top of me.
I groan and try to push him off.
"Get off of me, you're heavy" i say. Josh laughs a little and rolls off. I get up and get the snow off of my clothes. I look at Josh, who is sitting in the snow. "Get up, or else you'll get sick."
"I'm staying here until you forgive me" He says, being stubborn.
"Then you can stay there for a really long time, because that's not going to happen" I huff. He looks up at me with sad eyes, but stays sitting there. I turn around and start walking home. I look around one last time, but Josh is still sitting at the exact same place, looking as if I'm still standing there.