A/N: Oh my god, okay so this is amazing I am back on track everything is looking better and I wish I could make past chapters good but to whoever is still with me on this story I enjoy you guys so much xD This chapter is so amazing to me and I hope you like it. I really love feedback so help me become better. Thanks for the support and waiting for me to continue, here is chapter eleven!
* * *ECHO'S POV* * *
Before I got up for school I dialed Matt’s number. “If he doesn't answer, I don’t get to go to school” I told myself. Because if he did not answer I was not going to go to lunch and get rejected awkwardly at our table then be forced to eat in the bathroom like the rejects do in movies. I refuse to eat in the bathroom, that is wrong and unsanitary in my opinion.
It rang and rang and rang. all I got was his voice mail and I mentally cursed in my head. I hesitated before trying again. He did not answer the second time. I sighed and got up out of bed. I sluggishly made my way over to my bathroom. I examined myself in the large mirror above my white sink. My eyes were red and puffy from crying myself to sleep. Not that I recall getting any sleep at all. I decided to skip a shower and threw my hair up in a ponytail.
My stomach grumbled. As much as I wanted to refuse its needs and go back to sleep, food sounded like the best therapy for my little messed up heart. When I shuffle into my kitchen, the sun was shining brightly through the curtain. I had to cover my eyes and keep my inner self from screaming in terror. Once I reached the counter I noticed the CD player on the and decide that I should make some breakfast to some upbeat music to make me feel better.
When I realized all my good CDs were in my car, I began running out the door, I unlock my Wrangler and open up the passenger side door. All my CDs were in my glove box so I swung it open to take a peek at my music selection. To my surprise I found the CD I refuse to listen to the other day and pick it up.
“Ashley would want me to listen to this.” I mumble to myself. I grabbed that and my ‘Hype Mix’ just incase Ashley’s mix was going to be way too sad for me to cook with, or even listen to for that matter. When I strolled into the house and popped it in, it began with Me and Ashley’s favourite song and when I skipped through the whole thing, all the songs Ashley and I have ever jammed to in my Jeep where on there. I tried to put on a happy face and get my ingredients for an amazing breakfast.
Not a single sad song was on this mix as I dance around the kitchen and sang along to all the songs. It was like Ashley was with me in some way and I think I now understand what the message was about. It was for a moment when she couldn’t assist me at a time like this. I try and hold back my tears while I shoveled my omelette into my mouth.
Picking up my phone, I dialed Ashley. I thought it would at least nice to leave a voicemail and maybe she would be happy the mix has been used the way she would want it to be. When the phone beeps, I know it is time to speak.
“Hey Ash, I found that mix CD you made. It is being put to good use. Ashley,” I paused to take a deep breath. “I don’t know what I did and you aren’t being fair about it either. Best friends are suppose to be honest and I cannot fix what I have done without you telling me what I did. I am confused and I don’t know what to do. We have never ever got into a problem. I miss you and I need you. Call me back please.” I pushed the end button on my phone. That was all I could say to something like this.
After eating breakfast I decided to go for a run. I slipped on some comfy shorts and a sports bra. Grabbing my phone and headphones I walked out of the house and began to run. I didn’t know where I was running to but I knew I had to run it all off. A morning is good when you start running. I used to do it when I played soccer. the word soccer plays in my head. Matt and Ashley used to help me practice all the time. It hurt me and my chest began to ache with the longing of my friends back at my side. I had gone too long without my friends.
I cut the street corner when my phone buzzed. I jumped and I felt panicked, looking down to quickly see who it was. When I saw ‘Sabrina’ as the one who text me, i stopped my run to see what she had wanted. Sabrina had told me she was in town and wanted to know if I wanted to do something.
I text her back “Please.” My mom wasn’t home so I was all alone and could not talk to no one. Now I could spill my heart out to my second mother, who I missed. Sabrina was like a mother to me but also like a really close friend. She understood me and didn’t judge me on my life choices so I could easily spill my guts out to her
“Great I’ll be at your house to pick you up in an hour.” the text said. I held back a smile.
Turning around, I started sprinting back to my house. When I opened my door I stripped down on my way to the bathroom because I was a bit sweaty. I let the cold water wash away my troubles. When I got out I put on some sweats and a plain grey t-shirt and waited impatiently for Sabrina to get her. Once I heard the knock I jumped up from the couch and ran to the door. Just seeing her made me want to cry and I flung my arms around Sabrina.
At first she looked shocked but she did not hesitate to put her skinny arms around my body. “So much has happened Sabrina!” I blubbered to her. “Jinx is a bitch! Ash and Matty hate me. And my mother is gone!” I wale
“Oh honey.” She rubs my back. “Let’s get you inside.”
When we take a seat on the couch she asks me to tell her everything. After stammering and struggling for words I told her all that I knew. She looked at me as if she didn’t know what to do, but I didn’t care. I just wanted someone to listen, and that is definitely what she is good at.
“It seems like you have to confront Ashley and Matt.” She said. “And Jinx seems to be playing with you so just do not bother with her love.”
I rested my head on her lap and she played with my hair. “Why is this happening.”
“That is what you are going to have to ask. It seems that you are more worried about Ashley than anyone.” Her eyebrows raze
“Well yeah, I wipe off my wet cheeks. “She is my best friend!”
“And I always knew you guys belonged together. I knew that Jinx was fishy. Her name should of been Cod or Bass.” She laughed.
I looked up at her. “That is a really bad joke.” But I couldn’t help but laugh a bit.
I watch as she shrugs, ignoring my comment on the ‘joke’. “things happen love. Now who are you going to confront first?”
I took a minute to think about it. When I thought I realized no one could be more important than Ashley. Our friendship was way more important than some stupid ‘love’ that only seemed one sided. And if me sending more time with Jinx hurt her I would fix that. I would fix all of this for the sake of my friendship. Ashley was number one in my book.
The funny thing was, Ashley supported my love for Jinx so it confused me that she would be affected some how by it now. I wasn’t going to try to understand something that wasn’t true though. I was going to stop assuming and confront her instead of being a little chicken about it. Who am I to not confront my best friend? Why didn’t kick Matt’s door down to talk to her.
“I’ll talk to Ashley.” I decided. “She is way more important.”
Sabrina leaned over to kiss my forehead and I gave a simple little smile. “Good decision.”
* * * ASHLEY'S POV * * *
“MATT! MATTY!” I screamed. from under his covers.
“The hell?” Matt walked out of the bathroom with only a towel around his hips and his hair in a damp mess on his head.
“I do not want to go to school.” I pouted. “Do I really have to go?”
Matt sighed and crossed his arms over his chest. “I am not going to force you to go if you do not want to. But you will have to face her some day. you two are best friends for Christ’s sake.”
I face-planted into Matty’s pillow and groaned. “One day off.” I mumbled, hopefully loud enough for him to hear me. “I’ll go back tomorrow.”
“Alright, you're welcome to stay here. I’ll leave my key incase you leave or something and want to come back.” I watched as he strutted back into the bathroom to look socially acceptable. “You are going to miss cheer practice though.”
“Just tell them I am dead!” I yelled back.
I heard him give a light chuckle at my response and shut the door.
I thought about going to school but my chest only ached. What if I saw Echo. We did share a fair amount of classes and that would hurt my heart more. I didn’t want to see her give Jinx googly eyes. If I saw that I might as well be dead. I decided that staying here was my safest bet and it gave me some time to think a bit about my life choices and how to pick more acceptable partners that are not in love with someone else.
“Well I will see you later.” Matt called to me. He was finally dressed with his hair spiked in the front. Matt was very good-looking and I was surprised I never found interest in him. I was also surprised he never really dated much. Being the quarterback and the captain of our school, normally all the girls went after him first, but he paid no attention to them and worried about himself.
“Matt.” I began. “Who do you like?”
Matt looked at me for a moment, no emotion playing in his eyes. “I really don’t have interest in anyone.”
I gave it some thought and began to smile. I know I never paid much attention before, but once I put my mind to it, I knew exactly who he had his eyes on.
“You are lying.” I giggled. I knew him better than he knew himself. And I could tell he was lying, just like he could tell whenever Echo was lying.
His eyes got big as if I had already knew. I did know who he liked. I watched him eyeball this cute girl in our Lit class. Her nose was always in a book and she was alone most of the time. She was kind but looked as though no one should mess with her. I feel like she would fit well with Matt.
“Go for it.” I said. “Emily is really pretty and seems like your type.”
His mouth dropped open. “You-” He began.
I cut him off. “You have school.” I smirked.
His face was plastered with frustration. “We will talk later when I get home.” He pointed his slender finger at me as if I were in trouble. He walked out of the house and the door slammed. I giggled at his reaction.
I flung my legs out of Matt’s bed, letting them dangle as I thought about what I should do. I smiled wickedly when I decided that shopping was my only cure for such a broken heart. I went though Matt’s closet, looking for where he hung my leggings earlier yesterday. I grabbed them and slipped them on. I took a minute before pulling one of his black t-shirts off the hanger so I could wear it. It was a little baggy but I was in a lazy mood and his t-shirts always looked good with the leggings I had on. I threw my hair up in a messy bun and grabbed my purse.
Making sure I had Matt’s house key, I went out the door and into my car, making my way to the mall. When I got there I practically stopped into every single store to look at things. It wasted a great deal of time and took my mind off of you know what. My stomach growled when I passed the food court. I rolled my eyes at my stomach and decided it was time to stuff my face. It was like the second rule to sadness.
I looked at my choices and decided on subway, I began strutting to it, but what I saw froze me. Anger built up in every part of me as I witnessed Jinx sitting on the counter twisting her nasty little fingers in the young workers hair. They were shamelessly flirting and I wanted to shamelessly punch Jinx in the face. I practically sprinted over there and gave a wicked smile when Jinx looked over at me and did a double take. Her eyes got big which cause me to smile bigger. Oh you’re in for it now bitch.
“Hey Jinx.” I began. “How are you.”
“Fantastic.” She said coldly.
“Where is Echo, I could of sworn you guys had something going. Or better yet, where is your boyfriend?”
I watched the worker, who looked about our age, step back and look a bit hurt. Good, now she too knew Jinx was a lying, mischievous bitch. I wanted to yell at her, slap her in the face. I wanted to call her so many names because she was betraying my best friends, making her think that Jinx actually felt something for her. I was in pain because of Echo’s joy and love for Jinx and here Jinx was wasting those feelings, as if they were nothing to her.
“Echo really likes you.” I said sternly. “How dare you throw that away.”
She shrugged it off. “So, I like her too. She is cute.” A grin appeared on her smug little face. “She is a good kisser too.”
I grabbed her by the collar of her shirt and she slipped off the counter. “You bitch.” I seethed.
I knew people were looking over here, and I also knew that soon, a mall cop would come over and break the whole thing up, so I had to get out all I wanted to say before we had to separate.
“You are a waste of Echo’s time. First you choose a dumb boy who abuses you over someone who actually gave a damn about you, then you use her for your own fun. You are fucked up, you know that? Echo would never waste her time with you if she knew who you truly were. She loves you, doesn't that mean anything to you?!”
“But here is the painful truth love,” She continued to smile as if this was all a game. “She will never love you.”
The words echoed in my head. She knew how I felt. My chest ached and I felt the tears threatening to burn my cheeks, but before I let them fall I raised my hand and slapped her right on her ugly face. A hand print was the only thing left as proof of me hitting her. Her face was full of shock as she looked back at me.
“I’m sure it didn’t phase you anyway, right? You should be used to it by now.” I said, before walking away. I knew what I said was wrong, but I wanted to effect her in some way. I wanted to hurt her like she hurt Echo. I wanted to hurt her like she hurt me.
I felt the hot tears roll down but I ignored them as I walked straight to my car and began to let all my feelings come out in sobs. The last words Jinx said to me stuck in my mind and played over and over on repeat;
“But here is the painful truth love, she will never love you.”