After I locked the door I put my hands in my hair and I started to freak out, pacing in my room.
"Oh no. No. No. No." I cried. Tears were now falling.
"I can't do this. I can't. I can't." I went to the bathroom and looked at myself.
Red puffy eyes. Red nose, my cheeks were red. All flashbacks from when I looked at myself.
No Lola. No. You can't go back to your depression. The light side of my mind spoke.
Do it Lola. Cut, you know how it makes you feel. You can let all your emotions out with a few swipes. "Shut up." I said to my depression.
My left leg burned and my left arm. My scared areas.
I wiped my face, and put in some Call of Duty to relieve my stress.
I switched to zombie mode and played with three other guys with headsets. Man they were funny.
I played a few rounds of Five when I was getting tired. I friend requested the guys I was playing with and turned the TV back to normal TV. It was a little past 11.
I crawled in my bed and pulled the covers to my neck.
"Everything is gonna be ok. You just haft to beat her at her own game." I smiled and closed my eyes.
I woke up to a wonderful smell.
I got up, put my hair in a ponytail and left the room. With my key of course.
Yes! It is bacon.
I followed the wonderful scent and what I am guessing is a little lounge, there was students from this floor, getting breakfast from a medium buffet of food.
I grabbed a plate and filled my plate with toast, bacon, a chocolate chip pan cake (love them!), an egg and some milk. I got my silver wear and went back to the room.
Kinda felt like I was at a hotel. No one seemed to notice me.
I sat the food on my record table and searched for some jelly and syrup.
It was hidden under the coffee maker.
I got a couple of packets and sat down. My TV was still on and on the same channel.
I know I'm 18, but I still watch Nichelodeon. And SpongeBob SquarePants is still my favorite show.
Fungus amoung Us came on and in the middle of the episode, the TV went black and two men wearing suits were sitting at a table.
"Good morning Dublin Academy. Hope everyone woke bright eyed and bushy tailed. As you all you know, I'm Deen Marshall and your Principal Smith. Today is December the 25, 2013." I about choked on my food.
"December 25?" I ran to my phone and December 25, 2013 showed on my screen.
"Damn. Time got away from me." I went back to my food and the two men continued to talk.
"Well it's that time of the year again. The Winter Fling is tonight! Bring a date if you have one of just hang out with your friends. There is no cost and the dance is in the grand ball room. Dance starts at seven thirty sharp. So don't be late." They did a closing and the TV went back to normal.
"Dang, a Winter Fling and a grand ball room. What's next, they have a bowling alley." I laughed and finished my food.
I threw my stuff away and decided to take the day searching around the campus. This place is huge!
I threw on some stuff (on my twitter @LeaneSamantha)
I put the map in my phone case and slid my key in my pocket and left.
The people with the buffet were gone and it was like nothing ever happened.
I to the main floor and saw some people at what it looked like a mail slot. There was a list of names with the number on them and I checked mine. #44
It used my room key to open.
I had a letter from my parents and a welcome letter from the school. I put the stuff back and walked outside.
"Let's see. Let's find the gym." I walked right and found that I was right near the soccer and football fields and the gymnasium. "That was easy." I laughed.
I had to walk across the school to get to the performing arts section of the school, that followed the West hall, the home education section, regular classes, and found my way back to my dorm.
"Well that wasn't as hard as I thought." I went to the gym and checked out the fields. To my surprise there was a couple of guys playing soccer.
Are they crazy? I went to the top of the bleachers.
I sat down and watched their quick moves. I know soccer or 'football' is big here so I better know what some of it is.
They had jersey's so I knew they were on the team. I squinted and noticed it was Parker! He had the ball. Damn he was good! He led the ball down the field and into the goal. His team cheered and the guys at the goals started to come to the center. They were done.
Parker turned my way and waved at me. I blushed and waved back.
I quickly ran to the bottom of the bleachers and I felt an arm tug me back. I looked and it was Parker.
"Hey Lola. I'm sorry for yesterday. I was mad at my friend and my temper didn't cool off. I'm pretty sure you heard about the Winter Fling tonight." My heart started to race.
Is he gonna ask me? I screamed.
"Would you like to go with me?"