15. chapter 11
After I dumped Robby, I felt this pain. It was an unexplainable pain. It was in my heart. This was the second time a guy had used me. I play it off as if I am a goodie goodie type of girl but I wasn't always this way. A few years ago I had a boyfriend name 'nacho' or at least that's what everyone called him, his real name was Andrew, which was awkward for me because that's my dads name. Anyways, I was "head over heals" in love with him and I thought he loved me too. Then one day he wanted to take things farther than I wanted to go. I let him because he promised to stay with me forever. After he got what he wanted he left because he had an "important family meeting". Then he didn't talk to me for a week. I got worried so I went to his house and what I found was unbelievable. He was in his room, in bed, on top of Nicole, also known as my worst enemy. She hated me and would do anything to make me miserable. I was in shock so I ran home and found my razor. I broke it in half and grabbed one of the blades. Then I ran to the bathroom and locked the door. I cut myself on my thigh over and over again until the pain was gone. I didn't want/need attention so I made sure nobody could see the marks. I hid the blade and through the second blade away. I promised myself I would never go back to that. Now here I am, in the bathroom in the same position I was in a couple years ago. Why? Why am I so stupid? I looked down at my badly bleeding leg and began to cry. I hadn't even realized how deep I was beginning to go because I was so deep in thought. Nobody has ever seen me like this and nobody ever will. That's when I heard a knock at the door...
I completely froze.
HEY GUYS! SORRY THAT THIS IS KIND OF A SHORT CHAPTER BUT I FELT BAD FOR NOT UPDATING IN A WHILE SO I WROTE THIS. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT CHELSEY CUTTING? DID YOU EXPECT IT? WHO DO YOU THINK WAS AT THE DOOR. IT COULD BE ANDREW HER DAD OR ANDREW HER EX, MAYBE ROBBY? WHAT ABOUT JUSTIN? I DON'T KNOW... I ALSO WANT TO ADD THAT IF YOU'RE ARE A PERSON WHO CUTS. PLEASE STOP AND IF YOU NEED TO TALK I AM HERE FOR YOU. THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY TO GET A HOLD OF ME. I AM A PERSON WHO USE TO CUT SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR READING! DONT FORGET TO COMMENT YOUR THOUGHTS!! LOVE YOU DOLL FACES. XOXO(: