I tend to do this thing where I overthink. What is gonna happen to me when Mitch goes home? I don’t know, but I definitely don’t want to go home as well. I’ve said it before I’ll say it again. Mitch comes back to me on the couch and I snuggle up against him again.
He ran out of prerecorded videos really quickly. Not that I hadn’t expected it, but I thought he had at least one per day - turns out he didn’t. I was looking through his YouTube and realized he hasn’t posted in almost a week. When I confront him with it he just shrugs and says he’s been way busier being with me. I don’t like that he puts me over YouTube - It’s his bloody job, you can’t just stop doing it. I leave Mitch on the couch and walk to Jerome’s room. After silently knocking I peek my head through the door and he almost immediately lights up in a big smile.
“Hey Karoline, what’s up?” he asks.
“I kinda need your help with something.” I say slowly and sit down next to him on his bed.
“Yeah? What’s wrong?”
“Mitch isn’t really engaging in his channel and I feel super bad about it. I’ve been taking up all his time and when I asked him about it, he just said he’d much rather spend the time with me.” I look at my hands and Jerome rubs my back with his left arm.
“I’ll try and talk to him about it, yeah? I don’t want his channel to get lost and I miss recording with him.” He hasn’t stopped rubbing my back and I turn my head to smile faintly at him. He then proceeds to get up from the bed and I follow him out in the hallway.
“I’m going to ask if he wants to record later and if he isn’t up for it, then I’m gonna force him.” He says this with a smile and I thank him for helping me. I walk back to our room and find a book.
I guess, I should’ve seen it coming. Karoline is very fussing about my channel, but I guess that is a good thing, right? There is no reason to be worried about it though - my viewers are loyal and wouldn’t just unsubscribe even though I haven’t checked in a while.
Karoline suddenly gets up from the couch and walks upstairs without saying anything. She probably just needs the toilet, but I start thinking otherwise when she’s been gone for 10 minutes. Then Jerome walks down the stairs. He sits down next to me and says: “Want to record something again soon?”
After he says that, I immediately know where Karoline went. I clench my fists and try to not get angry, without succeeding. She acts like she my mom and I’m some kind of child that she needs to take care of.
“Karoline sent you, didn’t she?” I ask trying to sound calm.
“Yes?” he says and I can feel the anger start and coil in my stomach.
“Why does she think that she needs to take care of me? I’m the adult and she still acts like she’s my mum sometimes!” I almost scream these words at him and he has a shocked look on his face.
“Wow dude, calm down - no need to get angry! She only does it because she cares about you - Louise does the exact same thing. People who loves you are meant to be worried when you don’t do stuff you usually do.” He puts a hand on my shoulder as he says it and I’m so close to flinching away from him, but I don’t do it. This isn’t his fault. I sigh and lean in for a hug which he gladly gives me and he rubs my back.
“I just don’t think I’m very good at this whole relationship, but Karoline apparently is. I feel like she’s so different from me and just yesterday I talked to her mom about her moving in with me and now I’m not so sure about it now.” I look at him and he sighs at me.
“You’re so new to this whole relationship thing, that it’s almost ridiculous. You’re gonna figure this out! It’s great that you’re gonna live with Karoline and I’m sure you’re gonna work this out.” After saying this he hugs me and then continues: “Now let us go record some videos!”