4. Bad dreams
She ran out to the other boys, but I just kept standing there looking after her. Did I just tell her that shes beautiful? I slowly start walking outside. “Dood, you look like you have just seen a ghost! What happened?” Jerome laughed. I most have looked pretty starstruck. “Nothing,” I mumble. I can't take my eyes of her. She is talking to Jason, about the pool I guess. The boys have almost filled it with fresh water. She is smiling and that is good. It made me really sad, to see her cry just a few minutes ago. Jason puts his arm around her and squeeze her shoulders into a sideways hug. The others have started to walk inside.
“You like her, don't you?” Jerome asks. We are in his bedroom, just trying to plan some upcoming Hunger Games videos. “I really, really do!” I say; “andshekissedmeonthecheekandidontknowwhattodo?!” I almost cry it and leans into his shoulder. “Wow, slow down dood. What did you say happened?” he seems curious and I can fell that he won't just let it go. “When I went inside to cheek if she was okay, I hugged her and told her she is beautiful. Then I just walked away, but she ran up to me and kissed my cheek. Then she walked out to you guys,” I sighed. “Jerome I really don't now what to do!” I exclaimed. “You have to tell her, how you feel!” he laughs a tiny laugh. “You can't just let this opportunity go.” I nodd at his words. “But what if I can't?” I almost whisper. “You are the master of your own future. If nothing happens it's your own fault.” Wow where did that just come from. Jerome isn't that deep. “Where did you read that?” I ask with a crooked smile. “Oh just Tumblr, you know?” he pulls me on for a hug. “I knew that wasn't you,” I laugh as I embrace him.
I sit in one of the big couches with Ty, Ian, Quinton, Jason and Adam. They are watching some kind of tv show and I'm just browsing Tumblr, without really concentrating on it. - Mitch told me I'm beautiful and I kissed his cheek. Does he think that I have feelings for him? I do. His smell, his face, his personality. I close my computer and curl up on the couch next to Jason. “Are you sure you aren't tired?” he laughs. “I just need 20 minutes. Will you wake me up?” I ask him. “Sure.” he says and finds me a blanket.
I'm back home in my own house. I can see myself sleeping. The door opens slowly and a dark hooded person steps inside. The hood falls down and I see his face. It's my exboyfriend. He has a knife in his hand. I try to scream at him. “No! Go away you sick bastard!” I reach out and try to hit him, but my hand goes right through him. I run over to my bed and scream to my sleeping self; “Wake up! He is going to kill you!” nothing happens and he just keep moving closer.
“Karoline! Karoline! Wake up!” someone is shaking me and I open my eyes. It's Mitch. He holds my hands as I try to control my breathing. “It's going to be alright,” He says as he sits down next to me and pulls me in for a hug. I start crying into his chest. He strokes my back while I just let it all out. After a while I look up. The others are just looking at us. I can feel my cheeks go red. “What happened?” Adam asks- he seems worried. “Just a bad dream,” I say with a small voice. “It must have been a bad one. You screamed some pretty nasty things...” Ian says. I look down at my hands. “It was. What did I scream?” I hope it wasn't bad. What if I told them something I shouldn't have? “Something about someone who should go away, and then someone had to wake up, so they wouldn't be killed.” Jason says. I've had this nightmare before, but I usually wake up a bit later. I wipe my eyes and look at my phone. Its 10:28 pm and I'm really hungry.
I get up from the couch and stretch. “Is there anything I can cook, in the fridge?” I ask. They all give me a weird look. “We don't have a single thing. I thought we were going to order something,” Jerome said. “That's fine by me, but I really need something. I eat like a grown man,” I laugh and the boys join in.