Karoline was in total awe. I’m so happy that the party has lived up to her expectations. I was still holding her after our kiss, while smiling down at her. It wasn’t that much down - maybe an inch or two. She was actually pretty tall for a 16 year old, but that doesn’t matter anything. She is also really mature for somebody that young and I’m happy that that is the case, because I really like her. I have thought about the age difference, but it doesn’t really bother me, there is 6 years between my mom and dad, so I don’t see it as something wrong. Karoline was smiling at me as well, but then looked away, with a star struck look on her face.
“Is that pew… Pewdiepie?” she asked her bottom jaw still on the floor.
“It sure is biggums! Marzia should be here somewhere too!” as I said it she looked up at me with sparkling eyes.
“Really?!” she exclaimed. I nodded at her as an answer and she slowly slid herself out of my arms, but took my hand instead. We left the desolated kitchen and she practically dragged me over to the group of youtubers by the door.
“Oh yeah, people this is Karoline, she is the person who won the contest of being invited to the party,” Adam explains to the group of people. The smile on her face was bigger than I ever imagined it could be. Her grip on my hand went tighter as they all turned to look at her. She then proceeded to put up her hand and do a little wave, while blushing like crazy. I like that about her. She doesn’t want all the attention all the time. The others started talking again and shortly Karoline and I began talking to Seananners, Mark and Pewds. Well I didn’t really say a lot I just observed Karoline trying to obtain her inner fangirl. Over the last couple of days she has told me about the different kinds of gamers that she watches. All of her favorites are here, so I can see her need to contain herself.
“So Karoline, do you game yourself?” Adam (Seananners) asks her and she looks at him with big eyes.
“A bit,” she answers and blushes again - making her cheeks a beautiful red color. The thing she just said isn’t true though.
“More than a bit, don’t you think,” I ask and nudge her in the side with my elbow.
“Maybe,” she says and elbows me back: “But I’m still a noob.”
“We’d like to give you an opportunity to start your own gaming channel,” Adam says to her and the others nod as to say that it was true.
“Urgh… I don’t know what to say to that…” Karoline says and starts moving her feet as if she’s uncomfortable.
“Just say yes,” Felix says trying to win her over and sends her a big smile.
“I just think it is going to be really difficult for me to build up a fan base and I can’t even play that well. I would just get in the way,” she tries to explain and lets out a small sigh when she finishes. I feel like I have to step in and make her take this huge opportunity.
“Karoline you have to do this, it’s the perfect opportunity to get started and you are of course welcome along with the minecraft gamers as well! You can have a mixed channel and of course you are going to have fans! You are amazingly funny and it definitely isn’t true that you are a noob!” I try to win her over on our sides and she looks down at the ground, like she is puzzling what to say and do.
“Okay,” she finally says and I immediately hug her. The others gather around as well and it is one big group hug all of a sudden.
This is really pushing me over the edge and I know Mitch can feel that I am out of my comfort zone. I can’t just talk to a screen while playing a game knowing that others than who I’m playing with will hear what I’m saying. I’m going to sound so unintelligent and I don’t want to be seen as that. The hug from the guys is nice, but I’m getting a bit claustrophobic from the pressure of their touch, but also from the mental pressure. I try to push them away from me, but it takes a few seconds before I can breathe again properly.
“Are you okay,” Mark asks me as he is giving me a concerned look.
“Yeah I’m alright. A bit claustrophobic that’s all,” I say trying to smile at him and the others.
“I didn’t know you are claustrophobic,” Mitch said with an excusing voice.
“I’m not,” I say trying to calm him. “It’s just a lot to take in right now,” I say to him and lean in and burry my head in his chest. He wraps an arm around me and starts rubbing up and down on my arm. He then proceeds to kiss my forehead and I calm down.
“Maybe it wasn’t such idea to push you like that,” Felix says apologizing.
“It’s okay... This is just a bit overwhelming. I mean being in the same room with all my favorite youtubers in the world and even dating one of them,” I say giving Mitch’s hand a squeeze. “I would have never imagined this in my wildest dreams and now all of the sudden it’s here! Don’t get me wrong - I’m really grateful and all, but I’m more of a take it slow person and this is all happening at quite a fast pace.” They reacted at me like you would have expected, but that didn’t really matter I just wanted to party now!