Hey guys. It's me. I'm very aware that I haven't published any new parts of this story in forever. I'm sorry, but I don't plan to. Like I've said before. This story is a reality of my life. And I hate that, because it's too painful to write about. The last time I wrote in this was nearly a year ago. A lot has happened in a year. To put it short, not sure if I mentioned this before, but John was the one to get rid of my first depression. Then, last September. He left me. I've fallen back in and now I'm not eating much either. And im only writing in this because I need to get this off my chest. John and I didn't talk for a few weeks intil he finally just kinda popped out. Well, actually no. There's more to it than that. Nick told me that John wanted to break up with me, so I took it as there on the spot through a friend. I thought we were over. And then I dated this other guy for 2 weeks. Didn't end well let's leave it at that. And I broke up with him because that night I saw I had a missed call from John. I texted him asking if what Nick said was true and if he wanted to break up with me to just do it but I just hope we could still be friends and crap but he said "nope. No friends. Bye" and threw 11 months out the window. The longest relationship I've had in my short life. And I loved him til the last second. Then we stopped talking after that. And yeah, I found someone new in October. And now it's February and I finally came to terms with that me and John are over. And then I check my emails because I have a wattpad account now (vale_awesome) and I get emails from it. But it pops up a thing from Facebook. I'm used to getting these, but once I read his last name..... Well It took me a second to comprehend what I was reading. He actually fucking texted me on Facebook after all this time. Just when I've moved on. I nearly had an anxiety attack on the spot. My breath got caught in my throat and I couldn't breath. I could hear my hear beating in my ears. And then I just kinda had to run into the bathroom before bursting into tears. Those tears are replaced by annoyance now tho. So yeah. This is the last entry to this book. And probably to this account in general. Sorry guys. But I'm done. I'm just done. Just be glad I haven't killed myself yet.