I didn't know what I want. It was 2A.M. and I'd just slept with Louis but told Harry id be his girlfriend a little over an hour ago. I mean I always had a soft spot for Louis but I fancied Harry. Well at least I thought I did. No I'm not completely sure of anything anymore. Why? Why did I have to go and sleep with Louis? I totally regret it. But it was one of the most amazing nights of my life. Okay okay. I think I need to just sleep it off and deal with it later. Sleep it off. Yeah that's all I need to do.
I grabbed my bed sheets and pulled them over my body snuggling into my soft bed. Everything is going to be okay I told myself. I'm sure of it. With those last thoughts I drifted to sleep.
The sun light streaming in through the gaps of the curtains woke me up. I groaned and turned around pulling the covers over my head. I just want to go back to sleep and not deal with today. I can't see Louis and I can't see Harry. I think I should just give up on life. I sat up knowing I'd have to get out of bed sometimes. I rubbed my eyes as I yawned. I stood up and stumble over to the mirror in my bathroom. I looked horrible. I had bags under my eyes and my make up was smeared because I didn't take it off last night. My hair was a completely mess and looked like a tornado had just ripped through it. I need a shower.
It took my seconds to strip all the fabric off of my body and step into the shower. The tiles were as cold as ice. I quickly turned on the hot water and the strings off warm liquid splashed upon my skin. It was soothing and relaxed my body as the water flowed down my back with ease. Showers were always relaxing and helped me clear my mind.
Though I didn't shower for too long after ten minutes I'd cleansed my body and was in my wardrobe looking for something to wear. I picked out plain black leggings and a black arctic monkeys t-shirt. It was a bit cold out so I threw on my denim parka. I pulled on my favourite grey knitted socks to keep my feet warm. Mum would yell at me if I was only wearing socks so I pulled on my timberlands just so I had shoes. I heard a bing and checked my phone. It was from Harry.
Good Morning my beautiful girl hope you slept well. I'm free today if you want to hang out. Ugh I'm still so happy you said yes :D xx
I just sigh when I look at the message. I put my phone in my jacket pocket and trot down the stairs. My mum was reading the news paper and sipping coffee and my dad was laying in front of the TV. "Morning Mum." I say as I kiss her cheek and sit down next to her.
"Morning Hun want me to make you breakfast?" She asks.
"No thanks I think I might just go to the little cafe and get something to eat." I tell her. She just nodded understanding. I say morning to my dad and then I walked out the door grabbing my car keys. I sit in the car for a moment contemplating what I should do today. First I'm going to get breakfast then I'm going to go to Harry's and tell him I need a little more time and I don't want to rush into things with him. Maybe. I really like him and I want to date him. But I can't date him after what I did. He doesn't deserve that. I think we just have to take a break and then hopefully we will get back together. Then I will tell him the truth. Second I will go talk to Louis tell him that we can't tell anyone about what happened. We keep it quiet for now and when the time comes we will tell certain people.
Yeah that sounds about right. I start the car and head off to have some breakfast. I was so hungry. It took me about 10 minutes then I showed up to one of my favourite cafes. I don't come here often but nonetheless, I love it. I jumped out of my car and walked up to the door. As I opened the door the little bell rung notifying someone was in the room. There were a few people eating and drinking coffee whilst reading or going through social media on their phones. I marched up to the counter to go order my food. "Can I please have a butterscotch latte and a stack of ..." I was busy doing my order and I heard the bell ring again but I thought nothing of it. Until I heard the voice.
"Kylie?" I knew that voice all too well.
"Louis." I stated before turning around. I gave him an awkward smile and he returned it. I turned back to the cashier and finished my order. "With a stack of pancakes." I paid for my food and grabbed a recite. "What are you doing here?" I asked half panicked.
"Getting breakfast?" He said as if it was obvious.
"Oh." I realised I didn't really think that through. He didn't come to look for me or anything. He just happens to be here. Well I might as well talk to him whilst we are here." I am going to grab a table and come join me when you are done." I nodded and went and sat down at a table with two chairs. I looked around just examining the room. There wasn't an awful lot of people there, considering it was a Sunday morning and it was only a small coffee shop.
It wasn't long and then Louis was sitting in front of me. I didn't really make eye contact I just stared at my hands as I fiddled with the small packets of brown sugar that goes in my coffee.
"You aren't regretting last night are you?" He asked curiously as he noticed something was up. I simply just sighed in response. It was silent for a minute and then I spoke up.
"Look Louis. I honestly don't regret it at all." I could see him start to smile a little but it soon disappeared."But that's what's wrong."
"Why is it so horrible that you enjoyed it?" He asked looking straight at me. "I know you said yes to Harry but you said it yourself you thought he was a player." Louis was right but I thought Harry had changed for me. What if he hadn't ? What if in two weeks he just finds another girl? I mean everyone has a crush on Harry he is gorgeous.
"But Harry's changed." Insisted as the waiter dropped off the coffees on our table.
"Has he?" He asked looking at me seriously. He stirred his coffee and added one sugar.
"Is there something you're not telling me?" I asked him out of curiousity. He said nothing and kept stirring his coffee. I stared at him until he talked.
"I just don't think that he has changed and I don't want you to get hurt is all." Louis spoke softly and made no eye contact. He genuinely cared. My feelings were literally all over the place. My heart was telling my two completely different things and my head was just telling me to ignore them both. This is going to be so hard. I need to figure this out.....
Sorry I haven't updated in a while :P thought I'd update a little more hope you enjoy xxx