When I wake up, it's extremely early. No one is awake yet. The sky is just a dark shade of blue, light enough that I can tell it is the early morning. It's cold out but I'm not bothered by it. I think about what happened last night and it pisses me off. I look over at Legolas and see that he is still sleeping. I slowly pull Legolas's arms off me and venture towards a pond. I quickly hop in, washing myself of all the dirt and blood. I quickly hop out, squeezing my clothes and hair of access water and sit in a dry area. I play around with my knives because I'm so bored. I don't want to hunt for food or make a fire. I keep tossing around what happened last night in the back of my mind. Why the hell would Kili want to scare me like that. Why did he care that I was with Legolas? Like yeah I get that he likes me and all, but he needs to learn to step down once he realizes a girl is taken or not interested. Kili was a funny guy, but sometimes he needs to chill out. I think about what I'm telling myself for a few minutes and it makes me realize how strict I'm really being. I don't mean to be rude, I have just never felt this way for anyone before. I never really understood what love was until I met Legolas. I have been alone all this time, that I started to get used to not having anyone by my side, it was hard for me to get used to doing everything myself, but eventually I got used to it, but now, I realize how desperate I was for someone all this time. I never felt it, but now I did.
* 2 hours later*
It's brighter now. I can see into the distance more. I look around behind me. The dwarves are starting to rise, but I don't move a muscle. I search for Kili and see him with Fili. I watch Kili as he scans the area, as if he's trying to find someone. His gaze makes it's way towards me and I quickly turn my head back. I stare out into the forest and make out some movement. I strain my eyes and see that it's a deer. As hungry as I am, I stay where I am and watch as the deer stands like a statue for a moment and then runs back off. Suddenly, I hear footsteps behind me and Kili sits down next to me. "Something wrong?" He asks me. I just shrug my shoulders, not wanting to make eye contact with him. "I couldn't sleep." Was all I managed to say. "You look exhausted, you should go back and get some more sleep. He says. "I'm fine." I say as I try to hide a yawn. Kili was right. I felt tired both physically and emotionally, but I didn't want to show it. "Look, about last night...I wasn't trying to give you the wrong idea. I was just trying to be a little amusing, ya know? I know you're upset and that's fine, but I just wanted to let you know I wasn't intending to make you think any of this." I look back at him for a moment and slowly turn my head back to the lake. "I'll see you later." He says as he get's up after a few minutes and walks back to the campsite. I didn't want to talk to Kili, but I didn't want to be rude. I continued to sit where I was, even after everybody got up. I didn';t want to speak to anybody this morning. Not even Legolas.
I wake up and notice my arms are laying on the ground. I open my eyes and see that Aquilia is gone. I quickly get up and look around. I spot her down by the lake. She is sitting against a tree. I walk down and stop just behind her. "Good morning." I say and smile down at her. "Hey." Was all that manages to come out of her mouth. My smile immediately disappears. "Is something wrong?" I ask as I sit down beside her. She shakes her head no and yawns. "I'm just tired, that's all." She says. "How long have you been up?" "No idea." She says, shaking her head. "I woke up and just felt like sitting here." She says. I put my arm around her and pull her close. "Are you sure everything is okay?" I ask. She nods. "Yup."
We sit together for a few moments, not saying a word. "You should get something to eat. I can go with you if you want." Aquilia shakes her head. "I'm not hungry right now, but thank you." She says, blankly staring out into the distance. Replying to me as if she's in a trance and my words aren't doing anything but echoing in the back of her mind. "I'm not going to take no for an answer. I'm gonna go get food for the both of us. You don't have to eat it right when I get back. I'll come back to you when I'm finished." I say. Aquilia doesn't reply. She just continues to stare out at the lake. I stare at her for a few moments and then leave.
I have no idea what has gotten into her. Ever since I met her, she has been so upbeat and happy, but now, she just seems to be so out of everything. Does she know something I don't? I don't know. Whatever it is, it's worrying me.