11. chapter 11
"W-what are you doing?" The voice took me by suprise and I started to cry when I realised I just kissed Zayn. "How did this- How long is this been going on?" I looked down, suprised by the tears in his eyes. "This is the first t-" I was cut of by Zayn. "Just today, this is the first time it happened, why do you care?" Zayn was ignored. "Skylar do you like Zayn?" I looked down and nodded. "Offcourse." He let out a nervous chuckle. "No babe, do you like Zayn?" I bit my lower lip unsure. Did I? "I... eh... I don't... eh... know" I stuttered and Zayn smiled weakly. "I get it if you don't I mean you just found out your boyfriend cheated on you and it was probably just the moment." He said and even though his smile looked genuin I could see it wasn't.
"Wait, hold on for a second. Zayn, when did you and Perrie break up?" He said furrowing his eyebrows confused. Zayn suddenly looked guilty and my mouth dropped. "Youre such a dick Zayn." I choked out and he looked at me with a sorry look. "Skylar- I-" I cut him of. "Just- Just get out." I snapped and he sighed. "Skylar I''m sor-" I cut him of again. "Just leave Zayn!" I yelled. He looked down and left the room.
"What's wrong with me?" I asked on the edge of tears and he wrapped his strong arms around me. "Nothing's wrong with you, love." I shook my head. "Then why does everyone either cheat on or with me?" I burried my head in his chest. "Oh babe.." He whispered. "Do you think I'm a slut?" I sniffled and he shook his head. "Offcourse not, love. You're just confused and frustrated right now and I get that. That's totally fine." He said kissing the top of my head. A tear escaped my eyes and I quickly whiped it away.
"How are you?" He asked and I looked at him confused. "Tell me how you're feeling." He eplained and I sighed and shrugged. "I feel like sleeping and just not waking up for at least a month." He chuckled lightly. "C'mon let's try to sleep, okay? I'll wake you up at dinner." I nodded and changed into one of Harry's shirts before cuddling into my bed. "Sleep well, love." I smiled at him and he kissed my forehead before walking towards the door.
"Wait." I said as he turned of my light. "What's wrong, love?" I bit my lower lip unsure and took a deep breath. "Can you stay?" I whispered and he nodded before closing the door and getting into the bed. I cuddled up to his side, it made me feel safe. I closed my eyes, focussing on his breathing.
"Does Harry hate me?" I whispered and he shook his head. "No offcourse not, love. He loves you." He whispered playing with my hair. "Than why'd he cheat on me." I whispered. "Babe trust me. I've never seen him like this with another girl. I mean he ran away with you." I giggled slightly and closed my eyes. "Sleep well." He whispered. As a responde I cuddled up to him more.
After about 30 minutes I guess he thought I was sleeping. "I love you Skylar. And I guess that that's why I'm telling you know. I just wanted to get it off of my chest. I know we can't be together and I get that everything's super confusing right now. So I'll just... I'll just keep it to myself." He whispered before kissing my forehead. I smiled slightly.
"I love you too, Louis." I whispered softly before slowly falling asleep.