10. chapter 10
I ran a hand through my hair in frustration as I let out a sigh. How could she not tell me? Doesn't she trust me? Well I guess I get that she doesn't trust me now but before... How could I have been so stupid? I was not only high but also drunk, she probably hates me and I understand why but I don't think I can live without her, without knowing if she still loves me... I only want her... I need her. I looked behind me and just started running back to the house. I swung the front door open and ran into the livingroom where Skylar was hugging Liam a little to tight as she sobbed into his chest. "Skylar." I said and she pulled away from the hug, staring at me with her blood shot eyes. "What do you-" And she never got to finish that sentence because I smashed my lips against hers. I still felt the same fireworks I have always felt when I was around her even though she didn't kiss back, just the thought of our body's touching gave me sparks.
Even though she never finished that sentence I knew what she was going to say so I looked her straight in the eyes and took a deep breath. "You, Skylar, I want you." I whispered. "Harry I love you so much but I can't just ignore the fact you-" I cut her of once again. She looked at the ground and I cupped her cheek, she tried to shrug it of but I never let go. "I screwed up, Skylar, I know that and I understand you can't just forgive and forget but you have to know that I wasn't thinking straight I get that being high and drunk is no excuse to cheat on you but I love you more than anything okay anything and I'm not ashamed of it so please give me one chance, we can just be friends, I don't care but I just can't stand the thought of you being mad at me... I need y-"
Now it was her turn to cut me of. "Harry this isn't a movie and I'm not just going to forgive you and emediatly fall in love with you all over again. You hurt me Harry, I litterally felt as if someone ripped my heart out of my chest before stomping on it repeatedly. I guess what I'm saying is I don't know what to think right now, I'm confused and frustrated and I really don't know how I should react. Harry you were my first boyfriend and you broke my heart. I never had this feeling before and there for I don't know what to do or what to think so just... just give me time to think." She nearly begged with tears in her eyes. I looked down, biting my cheeks. She cupped my cheeks and I looked up. As soon as my eyes conected with hers she looked as if she was sorry and guilty. Why would she be feeling guilty? She looked as if she couldn't take it anymore and took her hand back. She mouthed 'I'm sorry, I can't' before turning around and walking upstairs towards I guess her room.
I ran upto my room and burried my head in my pillow, quietly sobbing, everything is just so confusing right now. A soft knock was heard on the other side of my door, followed by Zayn entering. "Are you okay?" He asked me and I sighed. "I honestly don't know." Zayn gave me a weak half smile before sitting down next to me. "I'm here for you, you know." He told me. I changed my glance from the blank wall to Zayn and tried to smile but it came out more as a weak smile. "Thank you." I spoke in a whisper due to the lump in my throat. "Anytime princess." He told me softly and I layed my back on the soft bed. Zayn layed down next to me and we just stared at the ceiling.
I turned to my side so I could face her. "Beautiful stop crying please, beautiful girls like you shouldn't cry." She changed her glance from the ceiling to me and the moment our eyes conected her breath stopped for a second. She smiled weakly but her smile dropped quickly. I cupped her cheek and came really close. She didn't stop me, she just layed there, staring into my eyes as if she was hypnotised. "Can I kiss you?" I whispered not able to talk any louder. She nodded slightly and I smile weakly before softly conecting our lips in a tender yet passionate kiss. I picked her up slightly not breaking the kiss and layed her down on her pillow since before we were laying at the foot end.
She put a hand in the back of my neck as our tongues massaged eachother. I had this weird feeling in my stomach wich I never felt before with any other girl. She slowly pulled back. "What are we doing? Oh my gosh I'm such a slut I get why Harry felt the need to cheat on me." She whispered as her eyes got teary again. I rested my forehead against hers as my lips played above hers. "Shht, baby, calm down, It's okay. Baby everything's fine." I whispered before reconecting our lips, just as tender but a lot more passionate this time. My hands travelled down to her bum as I twisted us around so that she was laying on top of me. I smiled into our kiss before pulling back ever so slowly. She smiled at me and my other hand tavelled down her body until it also reached my bum so that now both my hands grabbed her bum. I pressed my lips against her neck and kissed it gently before sucking on the warm skin. Her breath hitched and I opened my eyes slightly to see she was biting her lower lip. "Z-Zayn." She moaned in a whisper making me smirk against her neck.
Suddenly the sound of a door opening was heard. "W-what are you two doing?"