Help Me?

Hi my name is Giavana but call me Gia. I am suicidal. I've tried to kill myself 3 times and failed. I also cut. It's like a addiction and I can't stop. My parents died when I was 5 so now I live in a orphanage where everyone hates me. And one more thing. Music is my life. What happens when Niall saves her? What happens when she meets a girl named Sophia? Is it good or bad news?



* 3 weeks later *

Today I'm going baby shopping for random stuff. Whatever I pick that could be for both genders. I walked into a baby store in the mall. I bumped into someone.

"Sorry" we said at the same time.

"What are you doing in this store?" She asked politely

"Oh wait by the way I'm Klare" she said

"I'm shopping for this little boy or girl" I said pointing to my stomach

"Oh and my name is Gia. What are you doing here?"

"I'm shopping for my new baby cousin" Klare said

"Oh ok"

"So do you want to look for stuff together and get to know each other?" She said

"That sounds awesome!" I'm finally going to have a girl-friend. Like a girl that's my friend other than the boys. Don't get me wrong I love them but I need my girl time.

* 2 hours later *

"Do you want to get lunch?" I asked

"Sure, why not?" We walked over to a small cafe and found a seat.

"So who's the father?" She asked

"Niall horan, we're dating" I responded

"OMG I love one direction!!!!!" Hahaha now she's fangirling. She has to meet them.

"Do you wanna come to my house later?"

"Of course what's your number?" I handed her my number and she put it in her phone.

"I'll text you the address" I said


"And come over at around 7ish"

"Ok I have to go, see you then!" She said excitedly. I walked out of the café and went straight home. I walked through the doors with the shopping bags and called Nialls name. He came and helped me since there was so many bags. Did I mention that we went to almost every baby store imaginable? Well we did.

"Hey we need to clean up the house were having guests." I ordered


"I was thinking the boys and I met a new friend at the mall"I said explaining.

"Ok I'll call the boys and tell them to come around 7ish?" He asked


*skip boring cleaning*

It was 5:45 and I haven't even started getting ready. Shoot. I walked up to my room for a shower. I stripped down and got in. I just love showers. I can always think about stuff or I can also get things off of my mind. I washed my hair with honey shampoo and conditioner. I know what your thinking. Eww that sounds discussing for shampoo and conditioner but the smell is actually really sweet and good. I washed my body and got out. Before I put a towel on I looked at my stomach. There was actually a living thing inside of me. I saw a very small baby bump forming. I loved it. I got dressed in normal clothes since it's just our friends coming over. When my hair was dry I put it in a messy bun and put a little make up on. I went downstairs and saw everybody. Wow how long was I up there?

"Now it's 7:30 so an extra half an hour" wow did I just say that out loud?

"Yes, honey you did" niall said. I face palmed myself and hid my face in Nialls chest because now I'm embarrassed. I looked up and saw people laughing. I decided to change the subject.

"So me and Niall have an announcement... But Klare already knows"I said

"Were expecting!!!!!" Niall said. I heard a lot of congrats and OMG's.

"Oh and this is Klare I forgot to introduce her to you guys."I said.

"Hi I'm Klare"she said reintroducing herself. Everyone laughed.

"We'll we need baby names..." I said

"Let's give everyone a piece of paper to write there baby names on it for a boy and a girl." Niall suggested. We agreed. Everyone put there piece of paper in the bowl and I picked out one. I read it and It said:

Girl:carrot girl

Boy:carrot man

Obviously that was Louis.

"Mmm I guess I will consider it..." I said not to hurt this emotional feelings.

The next one I pulled out was

Girl: Christine

Boy: Harry the 2nd

That one was Harry's...

I pulled out another one and this one made me tear up.

Girl: Grace

Boy: Nathan

Those were my grandparents names. I used to be very close with them.


I sat next to my grandparents in the hospital bed. They are all I have left. I'm only 13. I'm now holding moth of their hands and the beeping stopped. That was it. There gone. The doctors came in the room yelling different words. I sat there shocked. I cried for days and days.

*end of flashback*

"These are the names I'm picking" I decided.

"Who put these in there?" Then it hit me. Niall was the only one that's knows about them. I ran over to him and gave him a big hug. He saw a tear escape from my eye. He hugged even tighter and whipped away the tear. I ended up going to bed after that. I told Niall to tell the others why I was like that. When I was in bed I couldn't get this song out of my head. It was Stare of Grace by Taylor Swift.

I'm walking fast through the traffic lights

Busy streets and busy lives

And all we know

Is touch and go

We are alone with our changing minds

We fall in love 'til it hurts or bleeds or fades in time

And I never (never) saw you coming

And I'll never (never) be the same

You come around and the armor falls

Pierce the room like a cannon boom

[Acoustic version:] (Pierce the room like a cannonball)

Now all we know is don't let go

We are alone, just you and me

Up in your room and our slates are clean

Just twin fire signs

Four blue eyes

So you were never a saint

And I’ve loved in shades of wrong

We learn to live with the pain

Mosaic broken hearts

But this love is brave and wild

And I never (never) {[x8:] Oh oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh-ooh} saw you coming

And I'll never (never) be the same

This is a state of grace

This is the worthwhile fight

Love is a ruthless game

Unless you play it good and right

These are the hands of fate

You're my Achilles heel

This is the golden age of something good and right and real

And I never (never) saw you coming

And I'll never (never) be the same

And I never (never) {[x8:] Oh oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh-ooh} saw you coming

And I'll never (never) be the same

This is a state of grace

This is the worthwhile fight

Love is a ruthless game

Unless you play it good and right

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