1. Troubled Thoughts...
I woke up to a horrible feeling. I was hungover. Why could I not stop drinking? Oh ya, that's write I just happen to be in love with my mate. Niall Horan, he's the most beautiful thing I have ever saw. He has a smile that makes my day, eyes that remind me of the gorgeous ocean blue. The sexist hair style, and a voice that sounded so amazing. I mean he can sing so well that it's not even fair. He was caring, nice to everyone, and I might add a hilarious drunk. He just had it all. I have to admit I have liked him sense X-Factor.
I wish I could tell him how I feel, but in all honesty I'm so scared to. No one in the band even knows that I'm gay. I'm so afraid that they will be like my dad.
I finally got up and went to the bathroom to shower. Then I noticed my markings on my skin. Wow I really went deep last night. I'm so shocked that the guys haven't noticed my scares yet. I mean I have cut sense high school. After all I was bullied and beat up everyday of school. My family just saw me as a mistake. That's why the X-Factor was so important to me. It was my only way out of that hell hole.
But now I have gone and fallen in love with my best mate. Who just happens to share a flat with me. Maybe everybody's life's would be better if I just disappeared. I don't think anybody would miss me. Maybe they would all be happy with out me. Maybe the band would be so much more successful without me.
Those are all things I thought about in the shower. When I got out I wrapped a towel around my waist, brushed my teeth and went to my closet. I put on so nike high tops, black skinny jeans, a black shirt that hugged my muscles and to finish of my look I put on my batman snapback. Then I grabbed my phone and headed downstairs.
Hi peeps haha sorry this chapter is so short I just want to see how many reads I can get which I will still continue it even if it's only one person who likes it. Could you please give me some feedback. This is my first story ever and I would be grateful to take any advice that you guys give me. Anyway thanks for reading it really does mean a lot. And I will try to update every week. Oh and just a heads up if I don't update for like a month(or longer) it's because I'm very good at getting grounded haha. I really should learn to stay out of trouble. Anyway I love you guys haha