142. You are my happiness....
“Well, the day that I get that random call from her, she was calling me to tell me that she was pregnant and it’s mine. She’s seven months pregnant. She didn’t tell me, because she knew what I was doing with my career and stuff. I didn’t know this was going to happen. I went to go visit her at her house tonight and I talked to her about everything. I’m sorry. You can’t be mad at me, because we broke up after this all happened. I love you and I need you to stay by my side with all of this. I swear from the bottom of my heart, that I didn’t mean for any of this.”
I couldn’t believe what my ears just allowed me to hear. I couldn’t even tell Justin about the baby. I knew it was best to just not tell him. I felt tears forming in my eyes.
“Do you know the feeling, when your heart is so hurt, that you could feel the blood dripping?” I asked Justin.
“I’m so sorry Nicole, please forgive me” Justin said while tears forming in his eyes.
Justin tried reaching for me but I moved away. I got up off the bed and stood up.
“I really didn’t want to hurt you Nicole…”
“You cannot be with me just because you don’t want to hurt me. You have your own happiness to think about.”
“You are my happiness. I’m sorry, I……….”
I cut Justin off.
“STOP!” I said now yelling while tears flowed down my cheeks. “Sorry doesn’t mean anything! It’s not that I’m still with you. It’s not just that you cheated—it’s that you’re still here, and I’m still with you. It just goes on and on, and it hurts every single time I see you. I hate it that you ….