198. There is one thing.....
“Justin, I don’t want him. He’s just a friend….okay?” I asked seriously.
“Yeah, but he doesn’t feel the same.” Justin said looking down.
“What do you mean?” I asked perplexed.
“Ask him. Ask him, how he feels about you. Ask him if he considers you two just friends. You may not know this, but he’s waiting for me to fuck up one more time, because he knows that you’ll really be done with me. He’s waiting for me to hurt you so bad, so that he can come and sweep you off your feet. He’s not looking for you to be just his girlfriend; he’s looking for something more. You probably think I’m just saying this out of jealousy, but I’m not; I can feel it in my heart.” Justin said with weepy eyes.
I laid the baby down in the other room. I walked over to Justin and got on top of him, putting bot of my legs on either side of him. He wrapped his hands around my waist. I wrapped my hands around his neck.
“Don’t leave me,” Justin whispered.
“Oh, for crying out loud—no! I am not going to go!” I shout and it’s cathartic.
There, I’ve said it. I am not leaving.
“Really?” His eyes widen.
“What can I do to make you understand I will not run? What can I say?”
He gazes at me, revealing his fear and anguish again. He swallows.
“There is one thing you can do.”
“What?” I snap.
“Marry me,” Justin whispers.