206. Love, Justin <3
………..forgotten about me. I realize that we are miles apart, but just know my feelings for you are still the same. Just hearing your name makes my heart race. I miss you more and more. I understand we broke up, and just the thought of you living with him hurts me even more and more. I lied and you cried. You left, and I stayed. You ripped my heart out, and after all this still just thinking about us makes me want you back. I want the best for you even if the best isn't me. Just know that where ever you go, I love you. I may pretend that I'm okay, I may put a smile on, I may tell everyone I'm over you and that I don't want you or miss you. But the truth is on the inside I'm dying, my smile is fake, I'm still in love with you and forever will be, I want you more than you could ever imagine, and I miss so much! There are days I think of you, and there’s days where I miss you. I get mad at myself, because I hurt you with great power. All my friends ask why I'm so hung on you, after all the shit that happened. It's hard to explain, I wish they would just realize what it's like to look at you through my eyes. There are times I want to be mad, there are times I want to give up, there are times I want to cry, but no matter how many times I think about that, I always end up saying, Damn, I love you so much. I don't regret the amount of love I have given you. I don't even remember how much it is. All I know is that I have loved you to the fullest with no limits, no doubt and no fear. I love the way, how even though we may be miles apart I can still feel you in my heart. Even though we are not together anymore, that doesn't mean I don't love you, it simply changes the way I love you. Once you have true feelings for someone, it will always be there. You may not like them anymore, but you still care.
Love, Justin <3