203. I still care....
“It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when you're heart still does.”
He still loved her.
“Are you fucking serious right now Justin? I just don’t understand you. It’s like you try to hurt me every single time. I’m so over this. When you say you love me; know I love you more, and when you say you need me; know I need you more ” I said while tears poured down my cheeks.
“Nicole, I’m not trying to hurt you. I just wanted you to know the truth. I couldn’t help that feeling I felt when I saw her.
A smile formed across my lips while tears still ran down my cheeks.
“One day you're gonna want me. The girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be there for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who saw your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. The girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. The girl that should have you, but obviously doesn’t. I don't know why I keep on loving you despite the fact that I'll get hurt again just like before. I never learn. I hate you with all my heart, but hell I still love you. “
“Nicole, why are you doing this? I just told you the truth. You’re acting like I’m gonna call off wanting to get married with you and go back to her or something. Why ask a question you don’t want the answer to?”
“No matter how much I say I hate you, just know I still care.”
I started grabbing my bags and putting my stuff inside them. Justin grabbed my arms and pulled me to him.