"Uhm...." I didn't know how to say it.
"Do you want me to leave so you can tell Perrie?" Jade offered.
"No, no. Stay. Please." I walked over and hugged her. Now I was crying on her shoulder. I feel so bad.
"I'm sorry, Perrie." I said still hugging Jade.
"For what? You've done nothing wrong."
"Yes, I have."
"What exactly is it you've done?" she asked worriedly.
"Starts with a 'C' and ends with a 'T'..." Jade gasped and hugged me tighter.
"Y-You.. c-cut?" A tear rolled down Jade's cheek. I nodded.
"Why?" Perrie asked. We were all in a little group hug.
"I just fucking hate myself. I'm fat. I'm ugly. Everybody hates me. Look at you, Perrie. Look at you, Jade. Look at Jesy and Leigh. You're all perfect. I'm just.. me. Sorry for cussing."
"But you are perfect, babe. I love you. Perrie, Zayn, Jesy, and Leigh love you. That's all that matters. Haters are haters. They're jealous." Jade said wiping the tears off my cheeks.
"What if they aren't jealous?" I asked still doubting everything about me.
"Oh, they are. You are absolutely gorgeous and skinny and everybody loves you!" Perrie said. "And don't worry. It doesn't matter that you cuss." she added. I lifted my dress an inch or two to show them the cuts. There were 4 deep, bloody cuts.
"Thank you guys. I'm so sorry. I love you both so much. We should get back."
"I love you too!" Jade yelled forgetting we were in a public bathroom.
"I love you more. Now, lets go." Perrie said taking my hand and walking out back to the table with Jade.
"Everything okay?" Zayn asked. We all nodded.
"Then what happened?" he's quite nosy if I say so myself.
"Uh.." I looked at Perrie.
"Girl business!" she said quickly. I smiled a little at the excuse, but Zayn believed it.
"What are your numbers?" I asked Jesy, Leigh, and Jade. We exchanged numbers. Once we ordered our food and ate, we all went back to Perrie and Zayn's place. Which is also my house, I guess.
"How about truth or dare. We've nothing better to do." I suggested.
"Yeah!" Jesy said. We sat in a circle. It was me and on my left was Jade, next to Jade was Leigh, next to Leigh was Jesy, and between Jesy and I was Perrie.
"Okay. Hmm.. Perrie, truth or dare?" I asked.
"I dare you and Zayn to sit next to each other and kiss for 1 minute. But you have to stay right here."
"Ew, him. I don't know him." she said.
"Yes, you do. You're engaged. Now, go do your dare." I smiled at her and she gave me a glare like 'I-hate-you-but-I-love-you'. She got up and went over to Zayn. They started kissing and after a minute I said, "Get a room. Just joking." Jade laughed. She leaned against the back of the couch and I went and sat on her lap. "I'm tired. Goodnight. I love all of you!" I said. I got 'I love you' back from everyone.
"I'll take you upstairs." Jade said. It was about 1 AM. I was exhausted.
"Jade, will you sing to me?" I asked her. I'd been listening to their music. From their old album and the new one.
"Sure. Which song is your favourite?"
"Little Me." She sang the song until I fell asleep. I'm going to love these girls. And hopefully the rest of Zayn's band too.