"Wake up. Kylee." I heard. I tried to open my eyes, but it didn't work so well. After a minute, I fully opened them to see Perrie. I sat up and ran upstairs without saying a word. I could hear footsteps outside my door. I brushed my teeth and then opened the door.
"Hello." I smiled.
"I thought something was wrong.."
"Nope. I had to brush my teeth." I laughed a bit.
"Oh." she giggled. Her laugh is so amazing. My iPhone buzzed signalling I had a text.
'from: unknown number'
'Hey, it's Parker:)' I blushed and answered.
'Hello(: I'm surprised you remembered my number.' I saved him in my contacts.
"Oooh! Who are you texting?" Perrie asked, walking over slowly.
"Nobody!" I said quickly. Maybe too quickly.
"Psh, yeah right. It's definitely that boy you were talking to!" I blushed. Damn it.
"Okay, fine. It is."
"Called it. Let's go eat, daughter."
I laughed, "Okay, mother. Where's father?"
"I'm not sure where father is, daughter." We walked downstairs and I sat on one of the stools next to the bar counter.
"What are you making?"
"Pancakes and bacon. Same as yesterday."
"Okay. I'll be right back." I felt nauseous. I knew I didn't need to throw up, and I would've been fine if I just drank some water, but I threw up anyway. On purpose. I was having a relapse. I threw up until my stomach was empty, I cut my left arm all up. Then, of course, I had to change. I brushed my teeth and hair, put on a baggy sweater and some regular jean shorts. I stared at my reflection. Ew. It's a monster; a fat, ugly, stupid monster. Pretend to be happy. I grabbed my phone and walked back downstairs. I sat back on the stool.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah. Just wanted to change and all that stuff."
'would you like to hang out today?'
'absolutely! let me ask Perrie.'
'great. she said yes! I'll meet you at the park at 12:30 if that's okay?'
'see you there, love.'
I squealed. Perrie glanced at me with a look of confusion.
"You know how I asked to go to the park a second ago?" She nodded.
"Well, Parker's meeting me there!" I smiled.
"Behave yourself." Perrie joked.
"Yeah, because I'm so bad."
"I know you are." she winked, "What did you do in the bathroom?"
"Uh. I didn't feel good, but I knew I didn't need to throw up. But I wanted to anyway. So, I did. It's like a relapse, but you could probably help me stop those." I looked down. I feel bad that I keep doing this to her and Zayn and the girls and Koral even though Koral really doesn't know any of it.
"Come here." She held her arms out and I hugged her.
"Babe, you can't keep doing this." She moved some hair out of my face and tucked it behind my ear, "these things that you do kill Jade and I. Does Koral know about all this?"
"No. She knows none of it. I don't want her to know it either." We hugged a bit longer til I decided to go on a walk.
"I'll be back in a bit. I'm going for a walk. Just to clear my head." Perrie nodded. You could see in her eyes that she was worried. I shrugged it off and started walking towards the door.