Okay before I start I am going to say that this story is fully dedicated to Paulie.
Sometimes it’s not about winning. Sometimes it’s about healing.
My name is Ian Dowell.I am 19 years of age. I dropped out of school at the age of 16, so I have no education. I play football, at least I used to. I have a girlfriend, well I used to. And I have a best friend, well this I didn't loose. For now anyways.
I don't seem like a guy who has lost a lot of people. But I did.
I dumped school because back then I wasn't thinking about my future, who thinks about their future when they're 16? I definitely didn't. I regretted it as soon as I had difficulties finding myself a job when I turned 18.
I used to be in a football team, decided to dump it for a while, but later on got told that I won't be able to play in the same team anymore, I didn't go any further with this and just decided to dump it for good.
I used to be in a relationship with a girl who I thought I really loved.Kayleigh. We've been in relationships for 10 months and then decided to break it off. Most of all probably because I told her I liked another girl. She said she didn't want to fight with other girls for me, so we just ended it for good. The girl I liked? Paulina.I had no chance with her. She is strong and straightforward, when I finally decided to admit my feelings for her it was too late. She said she likes me but for the sake of her friend who liked me she decided to hide her feelings, and never gave me a chance. Of course it hurt. And it still does.
I of course have a girl who is into me too. Jenny. She is.. well how do I say this. She is so not my type. Too giggly, too jumpy somedays. I don't like this. She sometimes seems too clingy, and annoying. She used to text me somedays asking me stupid question and even if she is nice, she just irritated me so much, I usually ended up avoiding answering her questions, and replying to her in general.
I as a normal teenager, have friends. Loads of them, but I can't trust most of them. I am living a normal life, I am 19 and I still leave with my mother because I don't earn much, I can't get the girl of my dreams, I hurt other people with my words somedays, I get into fights.
But I am just a person.