14. Chapter Fourteen.
Say something I'm giving up on you.
After mine and Paulina's conversation yesterday I was roaring at everybody who even tried to speak to me. After I told her I loved her she quickly logged out of Facebook and didn't reply, but it was a fact that she did see the message.
So it is obvious as hell that right now at 8 am I am not happy either. First of all because its morning second of all because I just am pissed. I quickly get dressed so I won't be late for work and without bothering to ear my breakfast, because I spend too much time fixing my hair, I leave my house.
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The day drags by until its my lunch time, and I nearly fly out of the shop. I look around to decide which way to head now, and where I'm going to be eating today. There's a McDonald's right across the street, but I don't want one, I might head to KFC which is like five minutes away from here. I start making my way there, not paying attention which leads to me walking into a few people who grumble at me. I just keep on walking not anyhow affected by how they act. Finally I reach the KFC and notice two familiar figures there. Just my luck, I mumble under my nose but walk in anyways.
I look where they sit and notice a seat free beside them. I am going to ask Jenny to give us a minute to talk.I buy myself some food and crash down beside them. "Hello girls." I say and smile at them. Paulina raises her eyebrows at me and I look back at her as if saying: What did you thought I'd give up or something? "Jenny, s'up?" I tell her and she looks at me shocked. "Hi?" she says back confused and I chuckle. "Will you please give us a minute to talk? It's not gonna take long. I promise." After I finally convinced Jenny she went upstairs to the bathroom.It took a while since I was trying to convince her to go and Paulina was says exactly the opposite.
"What do you fucking want from me? Why won't you just leave and find yourself another girl?" Paulina exclaims. And I look at her. "Why would I leave? I told you yesterday nothing you said to me affected my feelings for you." I reply calmly. And she rolls her cute pale blue eyes. "What if I told you I don't want you back?!" She says and leans closer to me. "I'd have to convince you to want me because I want us to be together, I want you to be the girl I can be proud of while telling my mates about her. I want to kiss you and I want to hold your hand. And I want you, and no matter how many cuts you have on your body and no matter how many times you're going to convince me that I am a piece of shit I'll be here." I exclaim and she gasps. "Don't you dare tell me something like that. I am not the girl you want. I am not the girl anybody wants. I've been told that a guy loves me and guess what? He fucking left so right now I don't want to hear anything anymore. Leave. and I am telling you this now. I. Do. Not. Need. You." she says taking a slight pause between each word. I stand up leaving my untouched food on the table.
No one can love her? After I fucking poured my heart out to her she tells me one would love her. If she wants me to be a jerk I'll be one.