74. I can't marry you
It's 8AM and Niall went out for a run. I couldn't sleep again, maybe because I was thinking too much about me and Niall getting married. I can't marry him because I'll be going to college soon which is in L.A and it feels like I'm just not ready yet. Everything is happening so fast.
I went downstairs only to find Niall breathing heavily on the couch. I giggled to myself and gave him some water."thanks babe" he said and drank it so quickly. I think I should talk to him now.
"Babe, we need to talk" I said nervously while playing with my hands. "About what?" "About us Niall" "ok....so what about us?" He asked." I can't marry you" I finally said while tearing up.
I froze when she said those four words. "I can't marry you". "Why can't you? Did I do something wrong? Did you find someone else?" I asked and she shook her head.
"I can't marry you because I'll be going to college soon which is in L.A, it would be difficult for us, and it feels like I'm not ready yet. Everything is happening too fast" she said and I pulled her on my lap. "Babe, look, we can make this work even when you go to college. I know it would be hard but we'll make it through together. I'll visit you every now and then and if you are not ready to get married yet then we can wait till you are graduated from college" I explained while looking at her. Two or three tear fell, I didn't even realise that until Alex wiped it away. She smiled and kissed my cheek. "Thank you for understanding, and you are the only one I want to marry, I'm just not ready yet" she said and I nodded. "Babe I get it , I just want you to be happy" I said and kissed her passionately.