Looking at her like this makes me feel like absolute shit, watching the girl that has been there for me when I was in trouble suffer does something to me I can't I explain. Louis has to do something I mean that's his damned father for Christ sakes. If I could I would do something but this is where I loos my qualification, where I just can't help.
"It's over." she keeps saying, over and over like a record player. I have my hands wrapped around her shivering body as we sit outside beside her car.
"It's not over." I say, stroking her hair. I struggle to reach for my phone in my back pocket and find Lou's name in my recent calls.
He answers on the third ring.
"Louis, can you meet me over at Norie's in like five minutes."
"Harry why are you over there? Its obvious that she doesn't want you over there."
"Lou, I need to talk to you so don't worry about why I'm here. I'll explain when you get here."
"Fine, he huffs into the phone. "I'll be there in a minute." I hang up and replace my hand over her cheeks, pulling her face up to mine.
"We need to get inside okay?" Her eyes travel past me and that blank stare comes over her face.
"Why are you here?" What does she fucking mean why am I here.
"I need to talk to you." That voice.
"Zayn you need you leave." I snap, grabbing her arm and yanking her up, which is harder than I would of thought but I try my best to loop her arm around my neck.
"Let me just talk to her, I can explain." her body stiffens.
"You always tell me you can explain! I don't want you explanation! I just got kicked out of college because of your stupid little friends!" She snaps, her voice rising with every step she took.
"what made you think it was okay for you to do that?"
"Do what?" I ask grabbing her wrist but she yanks away.
"Do you know how hard I've worked to get here and now you just took and threw it away." I grab at her wrist again but she's too quick.
" How did you even get those pictures?"
"It was-" He looks from me to Norie and back to me.
"It was Alex."
"My life was normal before you showed up." She spits turning back to me. She on my toes trying her best to push me away.
"I'm trying to help."
"Has it ever occurred to you that I don't need your help."
"I just want to be left alone. Is that so much to ask."
"Yes it is. I'm not leaving until you realize that- that you love me."
"Harry this is not the time."
"The hell it is." I snap. "You're yelling at me, I wasn't the one who drugged you, I'm am only trying to make the situation better."
"Well your not. None of this would be happening if you didn't show in the first place." What the hell, she was so close to giving into me before that fucking prick showed up. I'm tired of going two steps forward only to have her push me five steps back, I can never win.
"Can I talk to you." I ask grabbing her arm and pulling her away from him.
"Harry let go of me."
"Look at me!" I demand. "Please?"
"I don't want to talk about this right now."
She pouts and turns away from me. The things I would give up to be with this girl and she doesn't even see my trying. She doesn't see the change I've made in four years. She couldn't possibly think that I would ruin her fucking life again. I'm not that person anymore but she'll never understand that, that's why after all of this. After I've fixed it I have to go.
I leave her there, looking back at the dorms with her arms crossed over her chest and Zayn waiting to feed her more bullshit. Louis shows up a few minutes after I've gone inside, when he sees me his eyes go wide but he takes a seat next to me along the side of the hall.
"I need you to talk to your father."
"My father? I haven't spoke to that man in ages, I'm not even sure if he wants to see me after I left."
"Well you have to."
"He expelled Norie! Now cut your bullshit and talk to the man." I scream.
"What is your problem?" He ask more concerned than pissed off at my outburst."
"I want to do one good thing for before I go back to England."