It's been about two months since Britt gave birth to Olivia. And Olivia can finally come home today.
I was putting the car seat in my range rover. As Britt walked out with Olivia.
Me: good morning sunshine. I said as i gave Britt a kiss on her lips.
Britt: we have to finish talking about last night.
Me: no babe, i want to quit the band and stop going to shows and things. I have my family to think about now!
Britt: stop zayn you cant break the contract!
Me: oh my, can we not argue please. I already have enough going on! I yelled
Britt: dont yell at me! All we have been doing is fighting since yesterday!!
Me: all because i want to quit?
Britt: yes Beacuse the tour is over and you still want to quit.
Me: yeah whatever, anyways i got paul to move our crib back to my house. And our clothes.
Britt: yeah whatever thanks. She mumbled while putting Olivia in the car.
We drove in silence all the way home.
Once i pulled up to my house that we haven't been in for four months i quickly said
Me: I'm sorry okay I just want to be with you forever. Okay?
Britt: i know zayn but, you cant just throw your life away for us.
Me: but my life is with you! And i love you!
I could hear the waves crashing behind our house.
Britt: and i love you.! . C'mon let's go inside so i can put Olivia down.
I helped her grab Olivia before going inside.
I quickly rushed to Olivia's room, to make sure her diapers and everything was in her room. And sure enough they were. I decided to grab Olivia from Britt, so she could rest a bit.
Olivia's hair is slowly turning a bit more brown and her eyes are hazel just like mine. She was beautiful. I quickly laid her down in her crib, since she was already sleeping i shut her door a bit. And went downstairs.
I looked around the house for Britt, but i found her outside on the porch staring into the ocean.
When she looked back at me her eyes were soaked with her own tears.
Me: Britt, whats wrong?
Britt: i cant let you just throw your life away, okay i love you with all my heart. I do. But you need to stay in one direction. I feel like I'm ruining your life. Now you cant be young and stuff cause you have a daughter. I just dont know anymore. She cried even harder.
My heart was aching, just seeing her cry like that. She never ruined my life.
I quickly ran the pad of my thumb under her eyes.
Me: you know you never ruined my life. I love you, and I'll stay right by your side.
With that i gave her kiss.
We both ran inside and she started cooking diner.
After the cooking was done we sat down and i said
Me: i wont quit one direction. I saw her lips curve into a big smile.
Britt: okay. She smiled.
And then Olivia started crying.
We both dropped our forks and stood up. I went upstairs while Britt made a bottle.
Me: hey baby, whats wrong i asked while rocking her. Is your diaper full?
Britt: here give me her. Your phone is ringing.
I went to my phone and answered.
My mom: hey zayn, how's my Olivia?
Me: she's good britts feeding her now actually.
My mom: oh speaking of Britt, has she talked to her family?
Me: no not for a couple months now why?
My mom: i just think she needs her mothers support. What kind of mother just treats her own child like that?
Me: mother please i have a headache i lied. And hung up.
Britt: who was that?
Me: oh it was my mom.
Britt: oh. Anyways, um harry wants to hang out so i figured me and him can go to a cafe and drink hot chocalate since it's already winter again.
Zayn: is Olivia going?
Britt: yeah i was hoping.
Me: oh Beacuse if your leaving i want Olivia to stay with me until you come home?
Britt: um are you sure?
Me: yeah I'm sure, i just want you to have fun and walk around the city and stuff?
Britt: nah i mean i want to sty home today but i feel bad for telling harry no. What do i say?
Me: say yes, it's fine I'll be with liv.
In like 20 mintues harry showed up at the door and waited for Britt to be done.
*britt comes down*
Harry: okay ready? Let's go.
Brit: yeah. I'll be back in a few hours, kay? She said while give me a kiss..
As soon as they left i went up stairs with Olivia and put her in our bed. I laid down next to her and smiled. She was a beautiful baby. Soon i got text from louis.
Me: sorry, watching liv
Louis: oh. Maybe we could chill another time.
I felt bad that i couldn't hang out with louis. I have a daughter and sometimes i want to drink and smoke a cigarette but i cant anymore. And some times it gets annoying but hey it's life.
Before i even knew it Britt was home, but it was already 8:30.
And when she came home she had tears in her eyes.
Me: babe? What happened?
Britt: did you go to see perrie when we were on a break??
Me: yeah but it was only because-
Britt: do you still love her?
I didnt answer because i couldn't believe she would ask that. And since i didnt answer she took it as a yes.
Britt: i guess thats a yes. Just tell me when thing zayn? Why would you let me fall in love?!
Me: i told her to leave me alone. She followed me to Florida and then to London. I dont love her!.
Britt: well thats not what she's saying. She's telling people you guys hooked up! She yelled and stormed up stairs.
I wanted to follow her but i knew she was pissed off.
I went upstairs and heard Britt crying from the bathroom.
Me: Britt open up. Nothing happened! Please your over reacting.
I heard a little click.
And se opened the door.
Britt: over re acting? I'm crying cause i dont know who to believe.! Now i look like a dumb ass, that got knocked up by pop star who cheated on me with his ex! She yelled.
Me: what are you talking about i didnt fucking sleep with her! And i haven't slept with anyone else these 10 months we have been together! Chill out! I yelled back!
Britt: you know what? I believe perrie! You did sleep with her and i hate you she cried!
Before i knew it. She grabbed a small bag and picked up Olivia and put her in the car seat. She made a quick bottle hoped back in her car and left.
She left with my child, do i know where no. But since she took the baby. I'll go out and have fun with the boys.
I called up louis and told him to bring the boys.
We met up at a place called TRIC it was huge but with all these people.
I was dancing and having fun but it just didnt feel the same without Britt. Maybe i should just go home and wait for her. I had harry drive me home since i had a couple of drinks. When i pulled in the house britts car was home. I was gone for only like an hour. When i walked in i noticed that Olivia was up stairs and Britt was just sitting there in the living room.
Me: are you done yet?
Britt: dont! She whispered.
Me: would you stop please. You know i would never do that i yelled. And Olivia started crying.
Britt walked up stairs and cradled her. She calmed down a bit.
Me: okay look, at me.
Britt: no she exclaimed.
Me: look at me!
She turned around and looked me. With tears in her eyes.
Me: I'm sorry i went to go see her. I only did it for you. I explained.
Before i was done she ran into my arms and cried her eyes out. I didnt know this caused her so much pain. I felt bad for her. I mean i was hurting too. Cause he left.
Me: I'm sorry.
Britt: i know.
I felt like crying too.
Britt let go and said she was going to bed. And i decided to join her.
I felt bad knowing that i caused this pain, in her chest and I'm the reason that
Her eyes are red and puffy.