It was hard letting go of people that made me so happy. Poor Zayn I knew he needed me and I needed him. The boys would come everyday but then they started sending Niall. The first day he came I let him in because it was raining. He just looked at me for a while and finally spoke
'For what' i asked
'I can see you've been crying and u shouldn't be crying its to painful'
His word surprised me we talked for a while more but we really didn't talk the same like Zayn but I still felt cared for. We went up to my room and talked about the most random things. And when it came time for him to leave I didn't want him to. But he came back everyday.
'Niall if I wanted to be called potato I would change my name OK so don't call me your potato'
'But i like potatoes' he winner ah this boy was so crazy.
'Hey kamila do u want to come over to our house on Saturday'
'But what about the guys and it would be awkwa-' he cut me off with a small kiss. I'm not kidding it was basically a peck but it still made my stomach do back flips.
'Just please I'll pick u up at two'
Icouldn't speak I just nodded. Niall than hugged me goodbye and left. Then all of a sudden Bree runs into my room and screams at me to tell her the 'dirty business' ha idk why she called it that but it was funny. I told her if she could also come because I really didn't want to be alone with all those guys. It was late so I was gonna take a shower. Then fall asleep.
I was undressind when I look in the mirror. And I saw it that ugly scar I had on me. It was right above my breast. I hated it. It reminded me of so many bad memories. It reminded me on how that day that I got the scar was one that led up to me makeing the plan to me ruining my life and not wanting to do anything,love any one.
I was walking home and it was pretty late but i was with my boyfriend so I was happy. He went inside a 7 eleven to buy something and I stayed outside. I walked a bit further trying to find a signal on my phone and to a guy came up to me . I saw him and was starting to walk away towards the store. I looked back and he was right in front of me. He grabbed me and took me towards the back towards an alley. He ripped my shirt and started to grind on me. He started vigorously kissing me. What he said to me hurt more than when he made that scar
'arent u worthless Ur poor boyfriend hasn't even come looking for U'
he stabbed me which created that scar but he didn't rape me he said I was to ugly to be touched.
Never saw that 'boyfriend' ever again.
I have to let go of the past. I finished my shower and slept. I loved dreaming I could escape this world. But the dream I had that night confused me I dreamed about ......