Suicidal love

Harry styles is far from happy. He suffers with depression, suffers from anxiety and also is suicidal. All he wants is a friend, he wants to feel happy. He nearly killed himself twice. What happens when he finally finds a friend? Will Harry recover and finally be happy? Or will he kill himself trying? Maybe it will all be too much for him, but can Megan help him through it? Read to find out!

I love Harry and I'm not trying to make him this way in my story on purpose! I really wanted a powerful love story and I'm kinda dedicating this to all the direct omers who are suicidal an guys are worth it. But if this offend story or upsets you in anyway please is not read because I don't want to make you sad. I love you!! Xx


2. chapter 2

Chapter 2

The day was only halfway through and I have already gotten punched in the stomach. I was on my way to the bathroom, where I usually sit while everyone else is in lunch, as the beautiful girl who smiled at me today approached me.

"Hey! I'm Megan" she said giving me a huge smile.

"I-I'm Harry" I said nervously, while looking around to make sure no one saw me talking to her.

I would for sure get punched since she is so beautiful and I am ugly as hell.

"That's a Cute name...would you want to sit with me at lunch? I'm new here and could use a friend" she said with tons of hope in her eyes.

"Sure...but I am going to the bathroom first if you don't mind" I lied.

"That's fine! I'm at the far table on the left, thanks" she Beemed as she walked away into the cafeteria.

I hated lying to people like that, I wasn't going to meet her at her table because I would defiantly get punched or made fun of. She is way to beautiful to be seen with an ugly freak like me.

As I was about to enter the bathroom I stopped and realized all she wanted was a friend, someone to talk to and hang out with, just like I wanted. But it was hard for me to do, I didn't want to become to close to her, she would eventually find out about my suicide and depression. I took a deep breath then headed back to the cafeteria praying no one would beat me up.

Megan's pov

I sat down at my lunch table starting to get excited, I haven't had a friend since my best friend died of cancer a year ago. I became horribly depressed when It happened and I still am depressed , but a pro at hiding it. Maybe this Harry guy could be my new best friend to help my pain go away.

My thoughts were interrupted when I saw Harry enter the cafeteria looking for me, he eventually saw me and walked over slowly. He looked nervous and tired, almost as if he was sick....he looked like me without the make up hiding my dark eyes.

He sat down without even looking at me, he started playing with his fingers, he was shy.

"Sorry I took so long..." He said quietly.

"It's okay...did you already eat?" I asked noticing he didn't have any food with him.

Harry's pov

Shit. That's another reason I sit in the bathroom stalls when everyone is eating, I don't eat and haven't for a while. I quickly thought of an explenation that was believable and hoped she would leave the subject alone.

"Oh...I forgot my lunch this morning" I lied.

"Did you want some of mine? I have plenty" she asked sounding concerned.

"No thank you, I'm alright"

"Are you sure?" She said getting more concerned.

There was something about the way she worried about me not eating, I kinda liked it. It felt nice to be worried about, but I just had to try and not become to close to her.

"I'm sure" I said giving her a small fake smile.

We both sat there in silence, until she kept bringing up different things to talk about. I was honestly amazed at what we both had in common, we both loved music and loved to sing. That was one of the biggest things for me since I usually listened to music or sang to help my suicide problem.

I was suddenly interrupted while speaking with her by another shove to make me fall off my seat. It was the same guy that shoved me earlier. He started laughing and I could see the concern in Megan's eyes when I fell.

"Oh my god...Harry are you okay?!" Megan yelled as she got up and rushed towards me where I lied on the floor.

"I'm fine" I said quickly as I stood up and left.

I was used to this type of treatment by everyone, of course it bothered me a little but I honestly didn't care much anymore. I wished he had shit me instead of just pushing me, I know it's a horrible thought but it's all I thought about. I literally hated everything about myself and my life.

I decided to go back to the bathroom stalls to get away from everyone, I hated leaving Megan but I had no choice. She would most likely fall for the jock who just shoved me to the ground anyway.

I sat in the bathroom stall crying my eyes out like I usually did. I just wanted a friend for once, I thought maybe Megan was the friend I had been waiting for but I was wrong. And now I wanted to kill myself more than ever.

So this is my second chapter! I really hope you are enjoying it so far and I am so sorry if my grammar and spelling sucks. I try to look over it and make sure it looks fine but I do miss some things. Thank you for reading! Xx

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